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Okay I am assuming this is where we post our CCCC journal? Today I feel sad and angry like every other day lately. I an angry a lot of times for no reason and frustrated and feeling like nobody hears me. I have problems with abandonment I think. My real dad left before I was born. He proposed to my mom and when she said no a week later he proposed to someone else. Nice huh? Anyways my step dad raised me and he was great but I was not. I was a hurtful hateful teenager and he died when I was 17 from cancer. I was adopted into my pastors family and was even calling his kids my siblings. I finally felt a part of something again. But when we left the church to go somewhere closer to home I was no longer called family. I have had many many people in my life say they love me but never mean it. I get used and ditched. So maybe that's why I have such bad thoughts and when I see total strangers I think horrible things about them as well. I sleep so much lately i'm getting 14 hours of sleep a day or more. My birthday is tomorrow and we are having people over ad my house isn't clean at all. I have no energy. Okay well that's day1 I guess. Thanks for listening.....or reading I guess.
Amie

Happy Birthday, Amie!

Yep, this is the right place for your CCCC journal. Im so glad you are doing these steps. I truly believe you are going to find alot of truth within these steps. Yep, you are angry. Youre angry at people around you..and youre angry at yourself...and situations...

Its time for healing, sister. Its time you see you the way He sees you...and to know a kind of love that will NEVER leave you, has forgiven you....and be filled with a peace youve not known.

God bless you on this path. And, you arent alone. Dont give up though. He hasnt given up on you..and has so much more for you than you know.

In Jesus,
love momo

Its gonna be awesome taking this journey with you Amie. You will learn alot as you pull those weeds and tend to your garden. I did on my journey. You have taken the first step to healing. I know it is hard to learn to trust again and believe people when they say that they love you but hopefully when you complete this counseling you will find it easier. I am blessed to know you. You are doing great. Keep up the good work.

Love ya sis.

Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday Dear Amie Happy Birthday to You!!

Amie, first welcome to the Oasis second I'm sorry I missed your birthday BUT happy belated birthday
Next I see some of my favorite sisters have reached out to you and the words they speak ARE from the heart as you will learn on your journey here, you have found one of the MOST loving places I have EVER experienced in my life.
May God bless you and show you how to feel happy again and take the depression away.

Cuc