Bitterness..?
Posted: Sun Aug 21, 2011 2:36 pm
Hey friends. I don't really know why I am writing this, maybe one of you have gone through or you are going through a similar situation as I am. I just really need words of wisdom and such.. So yeah.
This fall, I was supposed to go back to school, but, as some of you know, I ran in to some financial difficulties. I will not be returning to school till maybe next semester. I have come to terms with it, but,I still feel bitter and annoyed with my friends who are moving back on campus and who are getting ready for their schedules to completely change. For their life to be consisted of chaos and craziness.
Call me crazy, insane, jealous, what ever. I want to have so much homework that I can not go anywhere(maybe). I want to be cramming for tests, I want to have fellowship with my peers, I want the reassurance that I AM going somewhere in life instead of sitting here. Dormant. Doing nothing.
I am trying to use this time to focus on His plan for my life, but, it seems as if my negative emotions are starting to get a hold of me. I am not sure what I need to do.. I have been praying that He take over my heart and use me in my current status of a working girl. I know He has big plans for my life and I know that what ever His plan is, will be better than ANY plan I could have ever imagined for myself.
But anyways, any advice would be helpful. Thanks!!!!
Love y'all!!!
This fall, I was supposed to go back to school, but, as some of you know, I ran in to some financial difficulties. I will not be returning to school till maybe next semester. I have come to terms with it, but,I still feel bitter and annoyed with my friends who are moving back on campus and who are getting ready for their schedules to completely change. For their life to be consisted of chaos and craziness.
Call me crazy, insane, jealous, what ever. I want to have so much homework that I can not go anywhere(maybe). I want to be cramming for tests, I want to have fellowship with my peers, I want the reassurance that I AM going somewhere in life instead of sitting here. Dormant. Doing nothing.
I am trying to use this time to focus on His plan for my life, but, it seems as if my negative emotions are starting to get a hold of me. I am not sure what I need to do.. I have been praying that He take over my heart and use me in my current status of a working girl. I know He has big plans for my life and I know that what ever His plan is, will be better than ANY plan I could have ever imagined for myself.
But anyways, any advice would be helpful. Thanks!!!!
Love y'all!!!