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I find myself getting scared because I know the end of the counseling is near and I feel like I have learned so much I dont want it to end. Today we talked about surrender and the Holy Spirit. Well I do my lesson and then I go back over it later before I write my Journal. I was doing pretty good. The Holy Spirit and I have been having some pretty good talks. Then when I went back over my lesson I read where the Holy Spirit knows your DEEPEST DARKEST SECRETS. I ran away from home when I was 14 and I went to California. Most of you know I am from Alabama, so that is a pretty good trip for a kid. I did things that only I know about. When I read that the Holy Spirit knows abou these things too it made me cry. We were having such a good time and such good talks before I read this. I cant help but cry now as I write this. My mother flew out to California to bring me home a few months later. My dad told her that it was either him or me. She was not to bring me back to HIS house and if she did he would not be there and he would take my sister with him. When I got back everyone was there but my dad. It hurts me to know that the Holy Spirit knows what I did while I was gone. I have not thought about these things in I dont know how many years. But I guess it is a weed that I need to pull. I am so thankful for Gods GRACE. I surrender myself to him and I know that the talks that the Holy Spirit and I have and will continue to have will only stengthen my faith. I just pray the creepy dude will leave us alone and stop putting things in my head, like he has in the past. Please continue to pray for me as this Cinderella works for her crown.

Hello danty

I love you too, by the way sister in Christ

You know sis, there are many things in my past that like to sneak up and haunt me. Things that i have done that made me feel unworthy of His love. I can understand the shame that comes along with these situations. Chin up sis, it is in the past...,. and the past is just that... GONE. Period > . Im sure if your like me I've asked forgiveness a million and one times x 20 times. He knows your heart now and is enjoying every moment of the fellowship with you as you are with Him. That is not who you are today. Forgive yourself and move forward sis.

Love ya much
God bless n keep you
♥Jill

This isn't the end. Just the beginning to a wonderful journey between you and the Lord.

He is amazing that He knows all and yet still loves us so very much. He won't leave you or reject you for your choices. He's always there and always faithful.

When those thoughts come...toss them out quickly. Very quickly. Don't let them play around with in your mind.

Love you.