Day 1
Posted: Fri Jul 15, 2011 11:42 am
This is my first post on this website. I'm still not so sure about it, but I guess I'll try it. I have a lot of mood swings, especially lately. Maybe it's because it's summer and I'm alone a lot. I used to have depression and I wanted to kill myself. But when I became a follower of Christ, I overcame my suicidal thoughts. That was the beginning of last summer, I think. I also decided I was never going to cut myself again. I never really got addicted to cutting, I stopped before I got to that point. But a few days ago, I slipped up and cut myself. Previously, I've never bled much from cutting myself but this time it was dripping. I freaked out. I don't ever want to cut myself again! But I still have problems with my emotions and mood swings. I want to be stable. I want to be normal. It's like one minute I'm in a really really good mood and the next I'm in a terrible mood. I feel really stressed out too. About the guy I like, school, college, parents, other family members, religion, my future, and with my shyness. I'm sooo tired of being shy and not really fitting in.
Sorry that this was a lot of complaining.
Sorry that this was a lot of complaining.