day 9
Posted: Wed Jul 13, 2011 4:33 pm
hmm...surround urself with things that remind me to stay on the path...fortunately i got this wonderful smart phone a couple days before i started this deal and there are a bunch of wonderful apps on there pertaining to the bible...heck i even have a king james bible on my phone so no matter where i am i can whip out my phone and blam! theres the bible! now using that wonderful thing when im feeling like a pile of poop is another thing...ive also quit watching tv(except sports) and the music i listen to is now all christian...at least i think it is anyway...12 stones and avenged sevenfold are christian bands i think??? someone correct me if im wrong on that...and as far as changing habbits...well lets just say that ive completely changed MOST of the things i used to do...unfortunately it has left me pretty alone as the people i associated with up until a couple weeks ago are not christian...in fact the only reason most of them were around was to take advantage of the fact that i had a job and an income...basically i supported their habbits...amazing that none of them called me anymore after i told them i was going to church and not smoking pot anymore...damn fairweather friends anyway...the thing im worried about is when this week ends and there isnt an activity at the church every nite and i have to find ways on my own to do "god" stuff because im "slothful"...guess like it says i have to train myself and learn to trust in the lord...the one thing that surprised the heck out of me is that i told my brother what i have been doing...he isnt a fan of any religion and has repeatedly expressed his disdain for such things...but last nite we had a good convo and he didnt tell me i was just a kook...big weight of my chest because he's my closest confidant...and i keep seeing that word patience in these steps...problem is that i never ever had any patience for anything in my life...as a matter of fact i usually become beligerent if things dont go my way exactly when i want them too...guess maybe i need to pray for some of that patience stuff...anyway i dont feel like such a tird today and most of it has to do with the responses to my last post...im thinking maybe i should find someone in the church that i can trust...which would prolly be just about anyone i just got to get over myself and my pride and do it