Day Three
Posted: Mon Jul 11, 2011 7:03 pm
I missed posting on day two...Today has been much better! I want to thank everyone for their prayers! I have actually walked around today without crying! I have been praying very hard to get to this point. I am speaking and believeing that he is going to be better. I know God can change him and he is going to. I can't wait to get the letter telling me he has gotten saved and given his life to God. I know that is all it takes to heal him. I really feel like God has given me strength and taken away my burrden. Don't get me wrong it still hurts some, but not as bad as it did. I miss my husband. at the same time I think about how with his addiction I really haven't had my husband in months. I have had a stranger sleeping beside me. I know God is going to restore our relationship. Likee he has my heart. I don't feel as close to God as what I use to but I'm working to get that back! I lost faith through my fights and issues at home, maybe that's why it has gotten as bad as it has. I know God has a plan for me and jamie (my husband) the bible lets me know this. Maybe this has happened to help us be able to reach others maybe not. All I know is through prayer and encouragement from C-O-O-L I have hope, and I feel much better. Please continue to pray for Jamie, myself, and our children...