Day Six- a day late
Posted: Sun Jul 10, 2011 4:04 pm
Yesterday would never have been a good day for me to type anything. I went off the deep end with my drinking and realized late last night that I had to be done with it or I had to be done with this. I can't do both. I can't drink myself into oblivion while still thinking of God or what He wants. I can't deal with the guilt of it. So that was my choice.... this or it from now on... I choose this. I choose possible freedom, happiness, and peace. I choose life instead of death.
I'm through with myself. Completely through. So God can use me for whatever, wherever, and whenever He wants to. My past actions have shown me that when I pretend to be god of my own life, I end up destroying everything around me or in my path. I need God to run my life, not me. That's it for now... Day seven will come later tonight.
I'm through with myself. Completely through. So God can use me for whatever, wherever, and whenever He wants to. My past actions have shown me that when I pretend to be god of my own life, I end up destroying everything around me or in my path. I need God to run my life, not me. That's it for now... Day seven will come later tonight.