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i had a hard time finding any difference between this step and step 2...but maybe im just narrow minded...or i over think things...anyways i found that coming up with ideas for activities that would bring me closer to god a little easier than i did even 4 days ago...either its because im thinking about myself less or something is working through me. i find myself making an effort to constantly control my thoughts...that doesnt mean that i dont lose the handle sometimes...i got into a bit of a name calling incident with the wife when she started bringing up some of my past infidelities yesterday...im ashamed to say that instead of asking god for what to say i let my emotions get the best of me...its possible that where im at right now, it may be best for me to just not say anything at all when im engaged by someone who is hostile because i tend to become defensive and begin to attack that person,usually like i did yesterday i go overboard and say things which are hurtful untrue and just downright wrong.i did however after a few hours apologize to her and ask her to forgive me(whether or not she did or will i dont know its not really my concern)but it made me feel better admitting my wrong and humbly asking what i could do to right what i had done...i didnt let it ruin my day or the next day...like i usually do...i used to give so many things power over how i thought and fealt...even now i can feel that changing in me...a little at a time...i know god is working in me and it brings me great joy! i truly believe that im starting to see the light, but im not even close to out of the woods yet...but as long as i grasp his hand and follow i know everything is going to be just fine.
thank god for all of you here, id be lost still without this website,i know that its just the internet and interaction with other people is the true test of my faith in god,but man i feel good about this and i just want to shout how great god is and tell everyone what he has done for me....might be a bit premature for that seeings that people will discount me as im only a week removed from being a complete and total hethen.

That's Great Sovern! God worked in me big time and I had a garden full of weeds..They still try to creep up and I recognize it and yank it up as fast as i can! LOL. I know i still have a lot of gardening to do!

May God move mightily in your journey of healing and growing. I pray most of all, that you Know His great LOVE for you!

Thanks for sharing. Your post helped me somehow.

May God bless you richly!

Ing