Delicate danty Day 4
Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 1:20 am
Forgiveness Boy, did this lesson come at a good time. First, I have to say we have an awesome God. He knew what I needed before I needed to hear it. In the lesson I am supposed to think of someone that I said I have forgiven and truely haven't. That one was easy. I let my son use my atm card to go buy dog food last week.(before I even decided to even do the steps or the counseling journals.) He took my card and spent $15.00 more without asking. I had it, so my account was not overdrawn but, it left me in a tight for the rest of the month. He said he was sorry and I said ok but that "I WOULD NEVER TRUST HIM WITH MY CARD AGAIN!" I meant it. I said ok when he said he was sorry . But I had fire in my heart and I wanted him to feel as hurt as I did. I wanted the guilt to eat at him. I wanted him to feel shame. All the things that I am now ashamed of. After our lesson talking about how would I feel if I was outside my child's room how would I feel, I cried. I let money cause me to hold hard feeling against my child. He knows better and I don't think he will ever do it again. So I forgive him and I will forget it, let him pay me back and never speak of it again. I learned all of this because of the lesson we had today. How awesome is God! There are so many things I am working on forgiving myself about. But, I have come to realize thru everyone's love and support, that there are things we all are trying to forgive ourselves for. Please continue to pray for me as I work on this. I am gonna keep pulling my weeds and working my garden. This Cinderella needs your prayers to get her crown. Thank you