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So far, everything I have read has hit my heart hard. There are plenty of things that i have held on to without knowing and as i read, i realized that was what I have been and am doing. I have plenty of thinking to do and this stepping stone adventure i am on with GOD is going to prove to be something that i truly needed. I feel that i need to forgive the main person that is supposed to be in my life but it seems like everytime i think about it, i hurt and it never happens. Part of me has felt that she has been forgiven and i have even spoken the words to her and felt as if it were true when i said it. I am lost, i have so much pain and dislike for her for the things that she took me through and how she changed the path that i could have taken from childhood. I did realize that at a certain point that i was the one who could decide where i was going and i did realize that after a certain point that it was not on anyone but me. I have not forgiven her in my heart, i have just realized that from typing this. I don't know how, GOD please help me. I want to walk in heaven and be with you when my day comes.

tahisia

If you are willing, I am certain God is too. If it's his will for you to forgive and we know it is, He will bring it to pass. Just keep talking to Him about it. Forgiveness doesn't mean the pain is all gone or that you don't hate what was done. There may still be emotion there towards what was done.

Ask for Him to soften your heart towards her and to give you understanding why she did the things she did. With understanding comes healing.