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getting better

PostPosted: Mon Apr 25, 2011 9:18 am
by daddysgirl
this morning i feel some what better. I took a long hot shower and I feel so much better. I thank the lord this morning for his wonderful word. I thank him this morning for my little grand daughter. She has her mothers cell phone and she is wondering around in the biggest conversation and she won't be two untill november. It's mostly gibberish but it is so sweet. She is playing with her daddy now and the giggles are delightful. It's been a long time since I had anything to smile about. I know I have always had things to be thankful for but I have just lost sight of them. My Father is all I need. I lost sight of that too. I have never been wanted in this life by many. But when my father and mother forsake me then the lord will pick me up. I just need the strenght and courage to face those that have hurt me and be able to hold my head high and have true genuine love in my heart and let all the anger and hurt go. Father you are all I have, all I have ever had, and all I want. Help me get in your will and stay there. I want to be ready when you come. *Pray*

Re: getting better

PostPosted: Mon Apr 25, 2011 11:21 am
by Dora
So wonderfully put.

Children and their preciousness helps me to refocus too. Praise God for the little ones in our lives.

Keep standing strong.

Re: getting better

PostPosted: Tue Apr 26, 2011 8:51 am
by daddysgirl
i am still having some issues with the anger i feel inside. i really don't want to go back to church because I am afraid. I am afraid someone will embarrass me by pointing my out or pointing out my sin. I understand there may have been some seeds of doubt sown against my pastor but the last time I was at church, i got a real bad feeling from the co-pastor. I just know they have set and talked about me on the phone. She stays on the phone alot. I just don't know what to do or how to feel about her asking me to move and I found out about it from my ex husband to beat it all she told him she didn't want me there anymore!!! That has hurt me so bad. And she stood and told the church how I would never have to look for another place to live as long as I lived. She throwed me out after I tried to commit suiside! I feel like I was just kicked while I was down!! I just don't know how i can ever stay at that church anymore. i have suffered one hurt after another there and I just can't take it anymore.

Re: getting better

PostPosted: Tue Apr 26, 2011 11:41 am
by Dora
For your best interest you may find more peace and healing in joining another group of believers for fellowship. This may not be healthy for you to rejoin this church you are typing about at this time.

I hope you are enjoying the fellowship with in the chat room here. :)

Keep your focus on Him. He loves ya! And so do I. *hug*

Re: getting better

PostPosted: Wed Apr 27, 2011 3:10 pm
by daddysgirl
daddysgirl wrote:this morning i feel some what better. I took a long hot shower and I feel so much better. I thank the lord this morning for his wonderful word. I thank him this morning for my little grand daughter. She has her mothers cell phone and she is wondering around in the biggest conversation and she won't be two untill november. It's mostly gibberish but it is so sweet. She is playing with her daddy now and the giggles are delightful. It's been a long time since I had anything to smile about. I know I have always had things to be thankful for but I have just lost sight of them. My Father is all I need. I lost sight of that too. I have never been wanted in this life by many. But when my father and mother forsake me then the lord will pick me up. I just need the strenght and courage to face those that have hurt me and be able to hold my head high and have true genuine love in my heart and let all the anger and hurt go. Father you are all I have, all I have ever had, and all I want. Help me get in your will and stay there. I want to be ready when you come. *Pray*

feeling some better. my pastor called yesterday and we talked a long time. We have been friends for a long time but there are things I still question and I still need God's help. *help*

Re: getting better

PostPosted: Wed Apr 27, 2011 10:29 pm
by daddysgirl
there is such amazing truth in the steps to healing. I asked God not to long ago that i wanted the complete truth AND I wanted to love him to the point I wanted to go beyond what he required but do it out of love. I really believe he is answering my prayers despite what I have done and what others have done to me. He is such a wonderful God and Father and I love his precious son.