Hello Sharonleeu
God bless you this day.
Welcome to Christianity Oasis. I've read your posts, and I want to share a few things with you. The Lord Jesus loves you, and He is all about healing us. Please do not doubt that His healing is available to you, and please do not believe that you are being punished by God. As Momof3 said, God does not work that way.
For many, many years, even after receiving Christ as Saviour, I allowed "whatever" to come between me and my faith in The Lord -- especially concerning healing. And yet, at the same time, I read tons of books on how to do this and how to do that, yet spent little time reading His Word. I invested much time searching high and low for my healing(s), yet didn't invest much time at all in getting to know my Healer...The Lord: God The Father, God The Son, and God The Holy Spirit.
Then one day in October of 2005, He led me here to this site, where I found a blessed family in Christ, a marvelous library of Holy Spirit inspired Studies, which helped me understand Who God is, His Word, Who He is in me, and how much He loves me. As my relationship with Him grew, I received an added benefit...healing.
Keeping seeking The Lord, and getting to know Him, The Lord God Almighty, with all your heart. He is your Healer.
I encourage you to start (if you have not, already) or continue the 14 Day Path Study.
http://www.christianityoasis.com/CCCC/Forum.htmand to visit the library of Studies
http://www.christianityoasis.com/Keywor ... tudies.htm.
Jesus is The Word of God. He heals.
God bless and keep you.
Love,
Sister Mack