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Feeling

PostPosted: Sun Mar 06, 2011 7:58 pm
by geselle
I feel like a slave
today everyone in my family went out to dinner after church and i did not why? because i had because i had to come home and clean up even thou i did what i had to do saturday.. i had to do it all again and more because my parents were having someone over after they went out to eat and the house had to look good before they came home and i had to do italone and my house is huge. i told them i wanted to go out too for dinner but my mo ask me if i was mad i had to go clean up.. i just smiled because there was other people in the car but it was embarssing how she said i thought to myself ok slave do what you are told.... i dont want to complain but that just made me feel bad, not wanted and used.... but i did it... whatever
just writing because if i dont i ten to stay by myself and keep things inside then thing pile up but yeah

thanks for listening

Re: Feeling

PostPosted: Mon Mar 07, 2011 12:35 am
by mlg
Hello geselle, I'm so sorry you are feeling down and out due to the actions of others. May you know that God is there beside you...and He wants to bring joy to you through all the hurt you may be feeling. My prayers are with you.

Take care and God Bless

Re: Feeling

PostPosted: Tue Mar 08, 2011 4:41 pm
by dema
Awww, hugs.

Re: Feeling

PostPosted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 10:08 am
by geselle
slave, salve, slave
then when i decided not to do anything i get yelled at :cry:
yesterday i came home i was so tired i just got something to eat and went to bed, i wasn't home all day the house was a mess but i was really tired i said i would just take a nap and then get up and clean up.... i didnt get up until this morning had no idea i was that tired. only to wake up this morning to yelling and screming at me for not cleaning up the mess i didn't make. :cry: i don't like people yelling at me, now i think i should have done it no matter how tired i was. my day is totally messed up.. (stay postive geselle, stay positive). i am helping around the house everyday but me helping just seem like not enough, i understand you live there you need to help too but man when you do verything i get tired and if i don't do this is what happens... im glad she not physical anymore but i can not take the yelling... next time i'll just do it.....
i have been trying not to get anyone upset and i am like walking on eggshells for the pass two years trying to be perfect for them what ever they say to do, i do it no questions ask no comments just do, so far so good until yesterday...

Thanks for listening

Re: Feeling

PostPosted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 11:00 am
by mlg
Just be patient...don't let the yelling shake you...you can't change the actions of others...but what you can change is your reaction...make a decision that you will not let their actions take away your joy...no matter what...and then seek the comforting presence of Jesus and let Him sustain you through and through.

*hug* It's gonna all be alright hun.

Take care and God Bless

Re: Feeling

PostPosted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 11:03 am
by Tam
Hang in there sis....
Like mlg said you can not change their actions but you can control your reaction. As my mom used to say....Kill em with kindness even tho you didn't make the mess. Just smile and say yes ma'am and no ma'am and what their actions begin to change.
*hug*

Re: Feeling

PostPosted: Thu Mar 10, 2011 1:45 pm
by dema
You might make a chart showing the pros and cons of living there. And you also might see the financial aid office and see what you might qualify for in terms of loans in order to live at school - that one or another one. Be sure and let them know anything that might be helpful. There are special scholarships and grants for people who's parents did this or that, for children who were foster kids - lots of different things. Investigate your choices. God doesn't want you to be mistreated - at least not long term. Sometimes troubles are there to teach us - but sometimes we are in them because we haven't noticed the door out.

Re: Feeling

PostPosted: Tue Mar 15, 2011 1:06 pm
by deetu
Just wanted to hug you *Hug9*