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I have all but given up on God. Life is just as bad as when I did believe in Him strongly. Now I just feel that he is dumping on me. I have struggled to raise my daughter who is now 18 all by myself. I didn't date and stayed focused on being the best mom I could be. I went to school and got two different bachelors one in psychology and the other in elementary education. And I am not working in either field. I just had surgery to remove my ovaries and fallopian tubes because of a ovarian cancer scare. I am lonely. I am months behind in rent. I owe 3000 to family members that want to be paid back. My dog is now leaking urine in his sleep and I can't afford the vet bills. I am in constant physical pain the surgery didn't make that go away. I was abused in about every way imaginable as a child. I have major depression with psychosis and the medication runs 200 a month to keep me stable. I spent hours in prayer and nothing. So now I have given up trying. But I feel I shouldn't. Its been over a year since I went to Mass.

sheep, are you doing the study? it brings you day by day in learning and healing
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One day at a time is the best way to approach anything. God didn't give up on you, so don't give up on Him.

I never liked going to church until I became born again and started going to a Spirit filled church. Now church is an hour of worship and music alone and I love it.

Keep coming and talking sheeps... it helps and God brought you here for a reason.

sheep i gotta add an amen to deetu's response

but i would also like to take a moment to suggest something that might ease the financial burden a little... the medicine.... dependent on your income most drug companies have a patient assistance program and you could possibly qualify to get free medication... u can sometimes apply by going to manufacturer website, and pull down application and fill it out and along with your doc cuz a script will be required.

One other thought comes to mind and i say this only because it helped me personally..... I can't give up on God because He has never given up on me. ( sorta a repeat of what deetu said)

Do i fall oh yeah many times. Do i feel He is far away? yep many times too. Nevertheless...... He is God. He knows and can see far more than what i am able to see. Though many times i try to fix things on my own, it is a huge struggle, cuz well, i don't always know which way to turn if i do it on my own.

A friend helped me see.... in order to resolve a particular issue i had been struggling with to just say God i don't know what to do, You take it cuz I can't do it and then let God do what God is gonna do. He knows best. And He is Love. Pure perfect love, not what we as humans try so hard to give.

One day at a time.... sometimes one hour at a time.... i do believe God led u here for a reason, i would like to encourage you to stick around, and encourage u to do the study.. and keep on posting......

Well hello there lost sheep Welcome to the Oasis! Sounds like you've been through some trials...I want to tell you that is the one reason you can't give up on God...see He is the healer of all things and He can help you. God doesn't wish any of these bad things on you...He only wants the best for you. Now that you are stepping out to try and find Him again....you will begin to see that He can bring joy back to life. I won't say this will be easy...but with God by your side it will be easier.

I will be praying for you. And I know God will move for you, but right now He just needs you to allow Him to become your best friend...He needs you to love Him as He does you...and I know that sounds hard...but truly God isn't to blame....and as you walk the counseling path...you will see this Truth.

Come visit us sometime in the chatroom.

Take care and God Bless

Lost sheep.....I am so sorry for all your troubles. I don't know what I would do if I was facing that many issues in my life at the same time. Im so glad you are here...where we can all join in prayer for you and give you some encouragement. The Lord is watching over you and does care for you....HE brought you here to seek some help and you can find it here. Do the counseling study...it helped me. Don't give up because God does love you. Satan is the one telling you that God is not caring for you. All negative thoughts come from the enemy. Keep praying ...cry out to HIM in everything. You are in my prayers.

I feel for you sis and I am praying for you. Don't quit seeking Him.

Gods good and perfect will be done. In Jesus Name.

May you find peace in Him.

Dear Lost sheep, as said by others God has not given up on you. He's always there, we just need to let Him come in I have recently realized this myself. The church can be your lifeline, the word and music can speak volumes! Keep on trusting Him, He loves you and wants to help.