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[smitties09]

Hi everyone,


I'm not good with words and explaining myself so please bare with me.

I'm very lonely, my mind and what I think I see in and around me is portraying how I feel. I grew up constantly ridiculed,yelled & sworn at,scared,and with high expectations on a daily basis. I left home when I was 16 and as far back as I can remember I have had these thoughts eg. Lonely,no body likes me,angry, no confidence to do anything,depressed,rejected, insecure, jealous, etc. I dont even know who I am most of the time......

when people talk to me all I constantly hear myself or this voice saying they don't like me, I'm weird, I'm boring, I'm ugly, I dissect everything and even look at their body language and read it negatively towards me. WHY?
I know of people but I haven't got anyone that I could call close friends and someone I can confide in also. I don't trust anyone and no doubt mask over everything about me. I withdraw/distant myself from my husband and children a lot and even think my husband doesn't like being around me half the time. I will explode at times saying he cares more about others than me. It doesn't matter who I'm with these thoughts constantly remind me of how useless and unworthy I am.

I'm tired of pretending everything is alright and pretending life is just dandy, I just want to be real and set free from the torment.

Is this normal?? Has anyone else been here? Has anyone been here but are well and truly on their road to recovery??

thanks for listening...........

[Mackenaw]

Hello Smitties

God bless you this day.

I am sorry you feel so disheartened. You asked if this is "normal", and while it may be how you and many, many, many others feel, no it is not what God planned for you. Jesus Christ is the Truth, and the Truth will set you free.

I don't know if you have started the 14 Day Counseling / CCCC Study, but you have not, I encourage you to do so. Here is the link:
http://www.christianityoasis.com/CCCC/Forum.htm

The Study has helped hundreds of people, including me, to clear our minds and refocus us on the One that can help us, and that is Jesus Christ.

I'm sending up prayers to our Lord, on your behalf. God's blessed will be done.

Smitties, I and many others will be here to encourage you.

God bless and keep you.
In Christ Jesus' love,
Sister Mack