Day 2 - Dabs' Release from emotional bondage
Posted: Wed Oct 06, 2010 6:09 pmYesterday, if you read my "Back at Day #1", you would have read about the young lady at my Bible study who was struggling with negative thoughts, as I have been, and I went over to her and asked her if we could pray together. Afterwards I wrote in my journal that I wondered if I should have done that. I got all kind of positive feedback from COOL, which I am so grateful for. But the awesome thing is this. I wrote the lady an email explaining to her that if I overstepped my boundaries or misunderstood her feelings, that I apologize. She wrote me back and said I was right on the mark and she was thankful that I spoke and we prayed together. She said she was under attack from thoughts that satan had planted in her head also. She said she couldn't help but believe God placed me there that night and she thanked God for sending me!!! Wow! It may be see how God was orchestrating things for our good; but that satan came in like a tidal wave to oppress me with thoughts of "not fitting in anywhere". The wonderful thing is I can see CLEARLY satan's scheme. I'm quite sure he will counterattack, but at least I can see what's happening now. I found myself amazed that God can really reach through this world by his Spirit and guide my steps. Before it was always me hoping but not really obtaining BELIEF. I'm beginning to now.
Today things have been going basically static. I work at home so it was a routine day. The joy from yesterday seemed to fade. I noticed that I felt more confident today - BUT with that I felt, as I have in the past, this "haughtiness" is the only way I can describe it. I want to have my emotions stable. It seems that when I figure something out and feel good about a situation, then following that I go into this "haughty" type posture. It's almost like a mini manic-depressive disorder. So right now, I choose to give all glory to the Lord Jesus Christ, who died for me and brought me into relationship with Him by the power of His Holy Spirit. I recognize that it is He and He alone who worked things out yesterday for both me and my new friend and it is He that is fighting our battles for us. I give Him ALL glory. I thank Him that He reached down from Heaven into my heart and thoughts and used people from COOL to encourage me and uphold me as I walk this path.
Today things have been going basically static. I work at home so it was a routine day. The joy from yesterday seemed to fade. I noticed that I felt more confident today - BUT with that I felt, as I have in the past, this "haughtiness" is the only way I can describe it. I want to have my emotions stable. It seems that when I figure something out and feel good about a situation, then following that I go into this "haughty" type posture. It's almost like a mini manic-depressive disorder. So right now, I choose to give all glory to the Lord Jesus Christ, who died for me and brought me into relationship with Him by the power of His Holy Spirit. I recognize that it is He and He alone who worked things out yesterday for both me and my new friend and it is He that is fighting our battles for us. I give Him ALL glory. I thank Him that He reached down from Heaven into my heart and thoughts and used people from COOL to encourage me and uphold me as I walk this path.
