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Step #1

today was really hard. i am very scared but i know its satan coming against me as i face my problems. God is big enough to heal me and i can learn new beliefs to overcome this. i do have to say i am back to day one with self harm as of last night, but today is a NEW BEGINNING. i am starting over and its gonna go from here. its not my life no more.. its Gods. i know i cant do anything by myself. i have to come in agreement with God and let him help me. "the foundation of friendship is based on TRUTH which establishes TRUST." this statement is hard for me to grasp... me and Gods relationship is based on truth... his word... and that establishes trust.... i have a hard time trusting anyone and anything...im ready to step out and let the TRUTH be seen and the TRUST be made. NO MORE LIES. i really understand what FAITH is now too... its not just a word to me anymore... faith is to BELIEVE something with all your mind and heart. believe it with everything i got and nothing less. something else that really stood out to me in the step one is "you are BELIEVING in what you do NOT want instead of BELIEVING in what you WANT TO BE." i had to read this over a few times to really understand what it was saying.. im believing that im very worthless and of no good.. im a suicidal cutter.. these are beliefs and lies.. not truth.... i should be believing im a wonderfully loved child of God who is the apple of His eye and he is the only one i should want to please... no one else... this study is really scary and is got me wanting to run away but i refuse.. i want these chains of bondage to be broken and im giving it all i have to be free. i can do this.. WITH GOD BY MY SIDE!

God loves you and so do I!

Praying for you lil sister.

Deut 31:6Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for [b]the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.

Exactly! What you believe is what you will receive....as Faith is built on belief and hope in Jesus...so if you believe God can handle all things and can heal then He will...sometimes that healing comes through the use of doctors, medicines, prayers, and nursing...but God has His methods and He will use them.

So glad to see you beginning anew.

luv ya

BaByAnGel I am so glad to see you doing the steps. I know that you can do this. But the secret is you gotta keep going wthen it gets hard and push through.
You are back on day one....so get up brush yourself off and move forward. Don't dwell on what was but on what will be.
I believe in you and I am proud of you for taking this step. Be honest with yourself and with God and you will go far in this.
Love ya babygirl!

So glad you are doing the steps. They really do help! Keep fighting through it. YOu are sooooo right...God is big enough to heal you. there is a verse that really helps me...I keep it posted in lots of places.

Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear for I am with you. I wil strenghten you and help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

That is GOD speaking to YOU!!!

I am praying for you daily.

Luv Ya [/b][/i]

love that scrip sbennett... I usually start in 9 where its says "I chose you"
I believe God has chosen each and everyone of us for a reason.

You are doing great babyangel!! Don't let any doubts come in now!

step #2

well i didnt write anything because alot of this was hard... i am learning from this to replace thoughts into my mind.. i stopped and did the study renewing your mind... and it really helped... just really renewing the mind and focusing on God is an awesome and mighty thing

steping stone #3

God's Grace
truth-> God sacrificed His only Son to get His children into Heave... this makes me think ... really someone loves me this much to do this... its hard to believe.. expecially when my earthly parents are.. or dont seem... like this.

God sacrificed His ONLY SON to get YOU into Heave. ... this seems unbelievable to me. and i have a hard time accepting others when they wanna help... even for prayer because of this.

Jesus took all sin, past,present,and future, for me. ... i dont believe that God can truly forgive me for everything... from the sex, drugs, alcohol, ect. i dont even want to admit to doing these things.

Jesus Himself CHOSE to lay down His life for YOU. why would he do this for me... ok he loves me i get it .... but really to actually lay down his life for me... i mean i believe in God but i just have a hard tiem believing that he would do this .. JUST FOR ME!

the real test is to see if you will get back up, dust yourself off, carry on and never surrender.... THANK YOU GOD FOR GIVING ME THE GREAT ABILITY TO BE STUBBORN

make right choices outta Love NOT fear of punishment. it will be yourFAITY that establishes your Works..... ok so im doing good because i wanna do it faithfully and because i want to not cuz im scared of some punishment im gonna recieve.

ALL you have to do is accept God's grace... im still trying to figure this out. to me its not that easy.

TRUST AND BELIEVE.... these words i know are so true but at the same time they are so hard to do.

BaByAnGeL wrote: ... i dont believe that God can truly forgive me for everything...

If you don't believe He can forgive you, then it's harder to believe everything else is possible.

BaByAnGeL wrote: TRUST AND BELIEVE.... these words i know are so true but at the same time they are so hard to do.

It's that step of faith... taking that step past your comfort zone that will get you going. Stepping out of the boat... breaking open the box you have put God in...

Keep doing the study... you will see...
Don't forget to ask Holy Spirit to help you before you start.

Oh , yes, God can and will forgive you for everything. Its called grace. Please believe in the power of Jesus's forgiveness for sins....He died on the cross for ALL of your sins, and my sins, no matter what they are.

Keep doing the steps and trusting in the Lord to heal you. He can and He will....have faith!

Luv you!

stepping stone #4

FORGIVE YOURSELF

*psalms40:1
*proverbs27:9

little problems need to be addressed before looking at the big problem

guilt

guilt from cutting. there is a fear that freezes me and i dont know why

when God forgives us He sees it NO MORE

guilt= self pity

I cant serve God fully when holding onto guilt

*psalms103:11-13

Let Go(of your problems) And Let God(remove them)!

God's forgiveness=Grace

*matthew18:15
*james5:20
*deuteronomy19:15
*1 timothy5:19
*matthew7:2

to forgive is to forget

if you dont forgive bitterness is formed (OUCH ... this hits home for me wayyyyyyyy too well)

*mark11:25-35 (this story always was special to me but now it shows me how i can administer forgiveness to others and if i dont how God holds me to that)

what would Jesus consider forgiveness?
~hes gonna choose the definition you choose ... and you will aslo be used on it.~

God's Grace is above all, the most precious gift we have. Extend your own mercy and Grace to others. Every day is a new beginning, every moment, a fresh start. Clean your slate and give others a chance to clean theirs too.

this stepping stone took me 2 tries to get all the way through.. satan really worked in a strong way and i had to take a break and come back to this... i know i can be free.. i just have to keep pressing in.

i know i can be free.. i just have to keep pressing in

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Yes you can!!!!! and if you give up I am going to come and kick you (just kidding)
I am so proud of you .. I pray that all this is taking hold in your heart and you are believing it for you.
YOu keep pressing in.....Let Go and let HIM work in you!
Love ya!
Tam