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I am sitting here at my computer......looking out the front door and watching the rain fall. After reading todays lesson I am sooooooo grateful for the fellowship that I have found here. I don't have a lot of real friends because most of them are here in person but virtual in our friendship. But I have a whole computer full of virtual friends who really are REAL friends. The ones on this site are very good for me but I have friends on other sites that I "fellowship" with that are not of the same mind as my friends here are. I feel torn between the 2 sometimes. The battle between the carnal and spiritual rages on......I know that I need to choose.......because I know what is right and true......but the pull from the other is sooooo strong......like crack to an addict......I feel like I can't live without it......even with the guilt and shame which always accompany it when I give in. We talk about love......I crave physical love....don't care too much about the emotional love....just the physical. That is my daily and sometimes hourly or even minute by minute struggle as it is today. Some of you may be asking the question...."Does she really want help?" The answer to that is this.....if I didn't want help I sure wouldn't share this ugly stuff with you and I wouldn't keep coming back. I am here because I have seen a glimmer of hope since I have been coming here.......I can't always see it or feel it but since I have seen it once I KNOW that it is here. I do want help......I am addicted...that is not an excuse....it is a fact. I am seeking the way out......God has helped me in the past but I have fallen again and can't seem to find the strength to get back up. But I'm not gonna give up and I hope and pray that my friends here will not give up on me either. Just please be patient with me........

Most of my friends are here too. The people here at the Oasis know me much more than anyone who I see in person. Save a few.

I hope you consider me one of those "real" friends cause I do you.

Some of you may be asking the question...."Does she really want help?"

I don't ask that. I know you really want help. You are going to get out of this and begin the journey of helping others which is what you so deeply desire. Wait! You already are helping others. You just don't realize it. Your sharing helps them. And when you reach out to them, you help you too.

Kinda cool the way God works that out that way.

Hey precious sis

You've been on my mind all morning. I heard a song on the radio this morning that made me so think of you...I'm going to look up the video in a bit and pm you the link...cuz I think it's all for you You are so beautiful more than you know.

I want to encourage you to choose to come to the Oasis instead of that other worldly site that the enemy uses to draw you into sin. He knows you are weak and He tries to beckon you away from the Lord...I pray that you will choose fellowship with Christians more and more.

luv ya sis

Do you have a church home? You can find the right kind of friends in church and there are programs in some larger churches for worship and other activities. It is just a suggestion. I love my home church and I have friends there who care about me.

I understand about the need for attention. Mine is emotional...although I used the physical to get it. I need someone to love me and need me in their life and pay attention to me. I feel lost and lonely without it. I am learning to fill that need with God and Godly things. Being here helps me too. Please keep seeking God and don't stop coming here..... its such a great place. I know I would miss you!

Yesterday I wrote you a post but my computer went bonkers and it wouldn't let me post or even stay on line. humm...

Now I am trying to remember what I said but the main point was for you to continue to reach for the good. When you want to go to the bad sites, go to something good instead. Patricia King or Joyce Meyers are my favorites and have so much information that once you start searching, the other thoughts leave.

At my church, we hug people... especially me Big hugger.
You may think that you aren't worthy to go to church or were hurt by a church, but you know, church is made by man and if the right church, then you get the right fellowship that you need. The internet is great but like you said, sometimes you need the physical stuff... laying of hands healing...
Maybe look for a full gospel, spirit filled church and see the difference.
Ask God to lead you... look them up on the internet first and see if you feel that church is the one. Or maybe you will feel you need to go to a church as you are driving by. Or like sbennett said, home churches are amazing...usually find by word of mouth though...