Your mind really is your worst enemy Journal Day 2
Posted: Wed Sep 15, 2010 8:04 pm
First, I just want to say, that I am so thankful and blessed to have received ALL the outpouring of love and support from everyone on here. I can't even tell you how magical it feels to have woken up this morning after a long night of no sleep to find such encouraging words, and positive praises of Him. I love you all so much already and I am amazed every single time He provides what I need. This time in the form of Oasis.
I just finished reading Step 2 and I have to say.... it is scary how much Satan can play with your mind, isn't it?? As a woman especially, I can replay almost any negative thing every said about me since middle school, why can't I recite the positive said along the way as well? Satan had set up not only camp, but a whole campground in my mind for years and I am so proud to say that the Lord is chasing him right out of there.
Although I still do not have any idea what Father wants of me in my immediate situation with my marriage, I know now not to water the evil seed or already grown weeds. I cut them right out, and fill it with the Holy, the Truth, The Only One. Oh how I yearn for a day when I don't have to fight for my brain! It will be hard for me, especially after years of abuse, years of being told I was never good enough or I wouldnt or couldn't do something, or that no one wanted me or no one loved me. I do know this, He loves me. He wants me. He thinks great things of my heart...so as long as I keep telling myself that, hopefully everything else will fall into place.
Don't get me wrong.....I have a constant tug-of-war between Truth and Evil in my head, but I BELIEVE my Father will win.
I love you all so much and I can't wait to be able to make it on a chat room soon!!!
I just finished reading Step 2 and I have to say.... it is scary how much Satan can play with your mind, isn't it?? As a woman especially, I can replay almost any negative thing every said about me since middle school, why can't I recite the positive said along the way as well? Satan had set up not only camp, but a whole campground in my mind for years and I am so proud to say that the Lord is chasing him right out of there.
Although I still do not have any idea what Father wants of me in my immediate situation with my marriage, I know now not to water the evil seed or already grown weeds. I cut them right out, and fill it with the Holy, the Truth, The Only One. Oh how I yearn for a day when I don't have to fight for my brain! It will be hard for me, especially after years of abuse, years of being told I was never good enough or I wouldnt or couldn't do something, or that no one wanted me or no one loved me. I do know this, He loves me. He wants me. He thinks great things of my heart...so as long as I keep telling myself that, hopefully everything else will fall into place.
Don't get me wrong.....I have a constant tug-of-war between Truth and Evil in my head, but I BELIEVE my Father will win.
I love you all so much and I can't wait to be able to make it on a chat room soon!!!