Hi Hrw716 and welcome to Oasis. Wanted to tell ya that you are hearing the Lord's voice. He led you here..and you heard His calling. There are times we dont think we are hearing from Him, but know that He is that whisper..that still peaceful voice that says there is hope. Im so happy He led you here. There is healing among these steps through the power of the Holy Spirit.
As for the pit you are in...you are so not alone. Its a dark, lonely, and scary place to be, but know that He will not leave you. Keep seeking Him and His will and one of these days you will look back and see where He was in it all...right beside you..carrying you and leading you. As Lizzie posted in your first post, read His word. There are so many times I could do NOTHING but read His word to bring peace to my spirit..and listen to music that glorifies Him...through praise and singing, He will lift your spirit.
God bless you and again, welcome to Oasis. You arent alone in this. Praying for you.
in Jesus,
luv momo