Step 14 - Fellowship
Posted: Thu May 06, 2010 5:46 am
I understand we need fellowship, and I used to go to church. I loved how I felt full of the Holy Spirit when I left. I went to just about all the churches in my area to find the one that fit me best and when I found it, it was great. I found a place where it seemed everyone had open arms. As I got hungrier for God's word, I would lose that time for church. I had 2-8 hour bible study, with understanding, and I couldn't leave my house because I was THAT hungry. I would pop into church every now and then, and one day the paster told the story of Job but turned it around, like we should be careful to serve the Lord when that's not what that story is really saying. I was so turned off and knowing the paster, I knew he wouldn't take me seriously or really listen to what I would be trying to tell him. After I divorced and then moved in with my boyfriend, I had a couple people tell me I was living in sin, and that's what you're suppose to do. Of all people, I knew that too. But to be shuned by a few people because of what I did really hurt. So now I study at home and every now and then I get people who don't understand God and are not godly people, come to me for help and understanding. I feel excited about that. I don't know what my calling is, but if people don't see me as being 'too good' for them, then I feel like I might be able to plant the seeds. I enjoy the fellowship on this site, it helps me feel spiritual.