My 1st day journal
Posted: Mon Apr 26, 2010 7:29 pm
Well as I see many here, this is my first day. My trials, my concerns, the light of truth? Yikes...... Well, my dilemma.... I am struggling with my faith and a relationship. I have been in a long term relationship with a man whom has no real active faith. Doesn't honor my faith by wanting to marry me, and I am having a hard time with ending the relationship because I feel it is the right thing to do because it is what my faith teaches. I love this man more than life it self, he is what I want for my life, whom I want to spend the rest of my life with, we have been together 7 years, we don't live together. But I am too the point I want full commitment or nothing. He is terrified of commitment due to a really bad marriage and divorce. We have tried many times to walk away, but we can never stay apart. I am confused and struggling. I want to do what is right with my faith. But he just cant take the marriage step and he will never be able to with anyone, he will never marry again, it isn't just me. I am so torn and broken hearted.