hey Bloodstone, sis. God bless you.
you are so not alone in these things. This list you have...all of these are caused by the enemy and living in this world the enemy thrives in...
Its time to take this list, give it to the Lord completely..and trust that His ways are different than ours..different than the world's. None of these things on your list are from Him, but He does have answers to all of them, and healing, too.
we are born selfish. out of our quest to fit in...find ourselves independant from God..which we all do as a result of original sin and flesh, we look for the love and acceptance we truly need from the Lord, but we look for it in other people first: we are left with mistrust, lonliness and fear. We were created to love Him, first. He will work through this with you sis. You are doing an awesome job. recognizing these things in yourself is half the battle.
keep goin. He's with you every step of the way.
praying for you sis and standing with you all the way.
in Jesus,
love momo