Day 5
Posted: Sun Apr 04, 2010 10:49 pm
Hi,
Well, I am not sure what to say, because well, I am still battling with so many things in my life!!! Forgive the negativity, but I am really trying to get over "Negativity" as well!!!
You know, one thing I have never learned to do is, "Time Management". Hence the problems with studying, sorting out my life etc.I am just so sick of disappointing, hurting everyone as well as myself.
I am going back to work tomorrow and I am a bit scared.
I can also testify that God is still dealing with me, as He has provided through people at work, which I all always had issues with, to sponsor me to go to a meeting of Angus Bachan, of the Movie "Faith Like Potatoes". He hold a "Mighty Men Conference" and this year is his last, as he is retiring due to health issues. I am excited and scared as I was always afraid of people! I still am shy and imagine being in one place with between 400 and 600 thousand men!!!!!!
And I need to Give God the Glory, I focused on all the bad the last couple of days, but God has truly helped me. I moved out in June 2009 from my wife's parents and then I went to this one church, and the Pastor actually came to see me at my flat. Well, on 17 November God delivered me from many things including Pornography and I praise Him for that. He took away my fear of man and gave me a boldness that is hard to describe. I could not stop talking of what God did for me on the busses I took to and from work and I bubbled for weeks on end, and God actually saved a girl and her baby at work, who went into pre-mature labour and God used me to pray for her, and I give God all the glory!!!!
But then everything came crushing down around me. Everything started going wrong, in every area in my life!!!! I don't have real friends, and I don't have family. I need a better paying job, but I don't have any qualifications, I have everything against me. All everyone told me is that God will not tempt me above what I can take, How much more must I take????
Well that is me for today!!! God is a good God and I so want to praise Him in everything I do, and be what He want me to be!!!
Well, I am not sure what to say, because well, I am still battling with so many things in my life!!! Forgive the negativity, but I am really trying to get over "Negativity" as well!!!
You know, one thing I have never learned to do is, "Time Management". Hence the problems with studying, sorting out my life etc.I am just so sick of disappointing, hurting everyone as well as myself.
I am going back to work tomorrow and I am a bit scared.
I can also testify that God is still dealing with me, as He has provided through people at work, which I all always had issues with, to sponsor me to go to a meeting of Angus Bachan, of the Movie "Faith Like Potatoes". He hold a "Mighty Men Conference" and this year is his last, as he is retiring due to health issues. I am excited and scared as I was always afraid of people! I still am shy and imagine being in one place with between 400 and 600 thousand men!!!!!!
And I need to Give God the Glory, I focused on all the bad the last couple of days, but God has truly helped me. I moved out in June 2009 from my wife's parents and then I went to this one church, and the Pastor actually came to see me at my flat. Well, on 17 November God delivered me from many things including Pornography and I praise Him for that. He took away my fear of man and gave me a boldness that is hard to describe. I could not stop talking of what God did for me on the busses I took to and from work and I bubbled for weeks on end, and God actually saved a girl and her baby at work, who went into pre-mature labour and God used me to pray for her, and I give God all the glory!!!!
But then everything came crushing down around me. Everything started going wrong, in every area in my life!!!! I don't have real friends, and I don't have family. I need a better paying job, but I don't have any qualifications, I have everything against me. All everyone told me is that God will not tempt me above what I can take, How much more must I take????
Well that is me for today!!! God is a good God and I so want to praise Him in everything I do, and be what He want me to be!!!