surrender
Posted: Mon Mar 22, 2010 7:00 pmseveral years ago, i pushed my faith and my inner child aside to become the woman my husband wanted. i allowed things in my marriage that would make the average person sick. my life had become so empty. i was nothing more than a pretty shell, but at least my husband was happy. GOD got my attention last year and i finally surrendered to HIM. much to the dertriment of my household. we often fight over the fact that our lifestyles take us in different directions. i have finally been delivered from the pain and shame of my life to this point and i can't share it with the person i love most. even worse, he considers me the enemy because i want to follow the laws of GOD.
tonight i didn't know if i would come home and find he had packed all his things and went to his parent's house, all because i took steps to walk in the will of my GOD by signing up for classes.
i get no(very little) moral or emotion support from him and i wonder daily if he's going to walk away.
but i must presstoward the mark.
i will take up my cross, i will follow YWVH this time
tonight i didn't know if i would come home and find he had packed all his things and went to his parent's house, all because i took steps to walk in the will of my GOD by signing up for classes.
i get no(very little) moral or emotion support from him and i wonder daily if he's going to walk away.
but i must presstoward the mark.
i will take up my cross, i will follow YWVH this time