Christianity Oasis Forum

[Guest]

i am not sure if i am in the right place. there are too many issues to deal with right now and i am sure that its kind of not like no one has not heard of sexual abuse and being gay and stuff. thing is it doesnt work well with being a follower and also being in the dark side doesnt either so i have to make a decision to want to stay on the path of the light instead of the dark. except that sometimes it seems the dark wins some smaller skirmishes and takes away and alot out of a person.
i dont know if this is where i am supposed to be but if not you c could like just move me out but do i start like here for 14 days? not sure even if you had it all lit up in purple i would be sure to miss the exit or entrance.
i have to say yes i am scared to death because i have lived all my life just where i am hidden. i write so i guess its safe to say this is me:

darkness seeps out
we're no longer enclosed
against the light
pressing always pressing
upwards finding its opening
and sliding through
taking over totally until
we all go down to the
place of no return
and in this agony
we wait until someone
comes and sees us
and delivers us
from so great a...
they must see they say
and we must make them
a sacrifice it says
to see
whose life is spilled out
the life
spilled out
opened up
its no matter that this
has been prepared
they still must see and know
the outside world
although they won't understand
although they see
and we are all inside this darkness
and separated we are
we cannot see
ourselves at all
we cannot communicate with
the outside world
labyrinth

[momof3]

Hi labyrinth...welcome to Oasis! so glad you are here.

Yes, you are in the right place..at the right time. know that you arent here by mistake. You are safe here. You are among your brothers and sisters in Jesus, who are walking this road in life, learning who we are and who we are called to be. so different from what the world has told us..has shown us.

Take these step, my sister in Him. Let Him show you where the life and the light is.

In Jesus,
luv momo

ps..you are not alone.

[mlg]

labyrinth you found the forum sis...Great...now you are stepping out on the pathway to healing. I know you are hurting and Jesus knows this as well...He is reaching out for you labyrinth...He is holding out His hand...He wants you to grab hold...and let Him help life you up.

You are here because God led you here...you can do this.

Praying for you.



God Bless you

[Guest]

what do i do next?
not sure

labyrinth

[momof3]

click on this link, sis

http://www.christianityoasis.com/CCCC/Forum.htm

go one day at a time. save the link to your favorites or bookmark the page. come back here to post in your journal. the most important thing is for you to be honest. honest with yourself and honest with the Lord. Dont worry about judgment, sis. none of us here have the right to judge any one else. We are all sinners, saved by grace. We are all on this path. Post all of your thoughts and what you are feeling..and what the Lord is showing you. Its your journal, so just be you.

remember to take one day at a time. I for one, am looking forward to what the Lord wants to show you through these steps. God bless you, my sister.

in Jesus,
luv momo

[deetu]

I said "hi" in new members but want to say "hi" again.
You will like it here, everyone is so nice. And the chat rooms too.
You'll find your way around quickly and feel right at home in no time.

[Guest]

Day 2: I feel like I am on the water someplace in a boat. And I am by myself and the boat is just drifting along and going someplace but I do not know where its going. The only way I know how to say things is in poems:

Losing myself Among the shadows

Along the way I lost myself
I cannot say how long it was before
I knew it
Perhaps it was when I was a child
Before I knew what was in the world
before I could talk and tell
and yet i just screamed in horror
yet my mouth would not open
I do not know
I remember the shield and wall
that was there
I came upon it
i kept dreaming within a dream and a dream
I stayed the same
i did not age
i split off into a million me's
and each had a name
and each were a part of me
flying in every direction
like fire flies they were gone
and i could not catch them
they looked like night lights
I thought the reality of my life
was a dream
I didnt know who i was
where had i lost myself
my core was gone
and i wandered around
i see the shadows following me
and dancing in the light
there are many of them
i see pieces of who i was in them
they follow me along happy to be
who they are yet
I am a forgotten entity to me.

Labyrinth

[Tam]

HI Lady nice to meet you.
Like the others I am sure have said, you are not here by mistake. You are at the right place.
Getting pretty lonely behind them walls huh. Well there is a hope and you can find it if you will but look. The 14 day steps is a good start at finding the real you. The secret is to be totally honest with yourself, God and us.
You are reaching out and I am thankful for that. Trusting is sometimes hard to do. But hey, what do you have to lose, nothing but gain here.
You are taking a journey that will change the rest of your life if you will but let it.
I am so proud to see you here and walking through the steps. Know that at times you will want to give up, it is then that you will have to push through. I believe in you and I know that you can make it .

Welcome to Oasis and may God Bless your journey.

[momof3]

hi sis..and welcome back.

i just wanna say this..before you were created by our Father, He had a plan for you. He loved you..and still does. Before you were told what you are in this world, He defined you. The world doesnt define you with the truth..it lies. the enemy of your soul set out the minute you were born to destroy the truth in your mind. Thats where the battle is. The truth...God's truth is what will set you free and show you who you really are. You are His. You may feel that you are in a million pieces, but God knows where you are. He knows who you are and who He created you to be..and THAT you is the one He sees...and loves with all His heart. Keep going, sis. You are on a road to healing and realization.


Jeremiah 1:4 Then the word of the LORD came unto me, saying,
5 Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee, and I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations.


His words are true, sis. Keep going on these steps. You will see. Im praying for you and standing with you in this.

in Jesus,
love momo

[mlg]

I thought maybe I'd write a poem in response to your sharing for day 2 sis. Day 2 in the counseling steps is about pulling weeds...so here goes....

Floating along
Looking around
Seeing the Weeds
Amongst the Deep

Wondering where I went wrong
Roots so deep in the ground
Darkness planting the Seeds
in which the shadows Creep

Out of the corner of my eye
I see a glimmer
I must be mistaken
That glimmer can't be for me.

A voice whispering soft as a lullaby
My Light will not grow dimmer
It's yours for the taken
Come closer I wait for thee.

[Guest]

mlg,
nice poem
i ve got to read day 2 tonight i work during the day.
i am the one in charge, i write the poems make sure things are okay
i go to work plan the day make sure everything is okay not out of control,
i came here on my own, no one but me to get help. the others didnt want me to but i m the one who is out now so i guess that makes a difference.
i m the writer so i write all the time
and i will share more. i dont know what the others will do

labyrinth

[momof3]

God knows you, sis. all of you, every fraction, every thought each has..and why. He will lead. He will heal. Keep going.

In Jesus.
love momo