journal day 3
Posted: Mon Oct 05, 2009 12:50 pm
Todays step was another good one, I am really relating to these more than I thought I would. When I was in my twentys I got married and had three wonderful children. We went to church twice on Sunday and did Bible studys together. But then something happened to test my faith and I failed badly next then I know I am divorced and in a bad state of mind(drugs alcohol, sexual immorality) and I blamed God. I finally realized that it wasn't his fault I chosed to do the things I did. I have always felt a tug in my soul that I believe was from God to come back but I ignored it for to many years. Over the last two years I been trying my best to Live for God again., but I knew something was still wrong because I still have problems with things going wrong so I drink and still tempted to look at porn. I now belive that I have been letting the thoughts that tell me that God will not forgive and my diffulculty in forging myself have been getting in the way. I really Love the Lord. Today I am going to forgive myself for the things I've done and banish the thought that tells me I am not forgiven. Thank You Father Thank You Jesus. Thank You Christianity Oasis