hey bluebird...welcome to Oasis! Know that you have been led here by the Lord, bro..cuz He has so much to show you..and He doesnt do anything by accident.
I remember i used to think that if i prayed for patience one nite, id wake up and magically have been struck overnite with the bolt of "patience-lightning"
. Bro, only through the trials and tribulations will we learn patience. When we realize that God uses these things to bring about the fruits of the Spirit, we understand that it takes time and work. He is beginning a work in you that you havent known before...by leading you through these steps. Forgiveness...for yourself...well...bro, forgiveness is the gift from the Lord..what Jesus did on the cross for you and for me..for all His children, was enough. It covers all and is sufficient. If it werent, there would have been no need for His sacrifice. Take hold of that truth and walk free in the knowledge that God HAS forgiven you if you have asked Him too..and you are a child of the King. Walk free from it. Shed the chains and listen to what He says. God bless, you bro. and am looking forward to walking this walk with you.
in Jesus,
momo