Day 6 and counting
Posted: Sun Mar 15, 2009 1:18 pmI'm basically drawing blank today , though a lot is happening , still having a hard time to have it sink in or rather, havn't sunk in yet !
Today , for the first time I decided to attend church services just for the sake of going , with no specific "reason" so to speak , for , in the past , I had to have a reason , such as Hatch, Match and Dispatch , or someone "made made me go" .
Nothing unusual about that ,so I thought, except for the two individuals that sat on each side of me , still nothing unusual about that , right ? . Ok , ever since I came to this retreat , these two stuck out like a sore thumb with me , more like a thorn in my side . One of says he came here seeking spirituality , but yet , no matter what you tell this guy , he has an argument about it "knowing better " why he shouldnt follow the directions given him . The other , total opposite of the first , every situation thrown at him , he comes back with one verse or other from the Bible , and most of the time has nothing to do with the issue at hand , just as long as he's reciting something ! in other words , a "Talking Bible" , in fact , at one point I snapped at him by asking him where the to find the OFF button . And here I am today, I decide to go to church for the first time , I get sandwiched between those two , one is singin & dancing and shouting halliluah after every word the minister uttered , the other , I see smoke coming out of his ears & nostrils .
After the sevices they one of them tryed some small talk , asking me what I thought , I said " I couldn't help noticing how musically inclined you are , you must of heard of Steely Dan " , he said " Go back Jack ? " I said "No , Stuck in the middle with you" and he goes "Clowns to the left me and Jokers to the right " I went hmm , you are smart after all , anything in the Bible for that ? " the other guy , interrupting, went " There should be , I said well "there IS" , one said no , the other asked me where it was , and I said ,"Well , how about this , why dont you both find it for yourselves , here's the catch , you HAVE to READ it "
I'm still numb about it , dont know wether to laugh , smirk , or just smile , but I think I should thank God for the changes He made in me that , at least I am not snapping back or being rude or use my good old "get a grip" attitude .
I know all this has nothing to do with step six , for in my opinion it is a daily practice that needs to be applied in my day to day affairs , and I can only report the result after putting into practise . But , nevertheless , I thank you for your time , and the allowing me the opprtunity to post my thoughts , I tell you , if I were to read this my response would be , "For some one who's 'drawing a blank' , that's a lot of writng isn't it ? "
What about you ?
In Fellowship of Christ
Today , for the first time I decided to attend church services just for the sake of going , with no specific "reason" so to speak , for , in the past , I had to have a reason , such as Hatch, Match and Dispatch , or someone "made made me go" .
Nothing unusual about that ,so I thought, except for the two individuals that sat on each side of me , still nothing unusual about that , right ? . Ok , ever since I came to this retreat , these two stuck out like a sore thumb with me , more like a thorn in my side . One of says he came here seeking spirituality , but yet , no matter what you tell this guy , he has an argument about it "knowing better " why he shouldnt follow the directions given him . The other , total opposite of the first , every situation thrown at him , he comes back with one verse or other from the Bible , and most of the time has nothing to do with the issue at hand , just as long as he's reciting something ! in other words , a "Talking Bible" , in fact , at one point I snapped at him by asking him where the to find the OFF button . And here I am today, I decide to go to church for the first time , I get sandwiched between those two , one is singin & dancing and shouting halliluah after every word the minister uttered , the other , I see smoke coming out of his ears & nostrils .
After the sevices they one of them tryed some small talk , asking me what I thought , I said " I couldn't help noticing how musically inclined you are , you must of heard of Steely Dan " , he said " Go back Jack ? " I said "No , Stuck in the middle with you" and he goes "Clowns to the left me and Jokers to the right " I went hmm , you are smart after all , anything in the Bible for that ? " the other guy , interrupting, went " There should be , I said well "there IS" , one said no , the other asked me where it was , and I said ,"Well , how about this , why dont you both find it for yourselves , here's the catch , you HAVE to READ it "
I'm still numb about it , dont know wether to laugh , smirk , or just smile , but I think I should thank God for the changes He made in me that , at least I am not snapping back or being rude or use my good old "get a grip" attitude .
I know all this has nothing to do with step six , for in my opinion it is a daily practice that needs to be applied in my day to day affairs , and I can only report the result after putting into practise . But , nevertheless , I thank you for your time , and the allowing me the opprtunity to post my thoughts , I tell you , if I were to read this my response would be , "For some one who's 'drawing a blank' , that's a lot of writng isn't it ? "
What about you ?
In Fellowship of Christ
