Day 2 weeding
Posted: Sun Dec 14, 2008 12:57 am
Me and weeds now that is a scary topic to think about because it is so hard to think about what are weeds and what is flowers.
I know Satan has planted a ton of weeds in the garden and misconceptions about God and who God is but the problem is sorting it all out. One example of it is that I was raised in church and one thing constantly being preached was living a sinless life and I have felt always compelled that I must hit this mark of perfection and to be saved or return to God that God cannot look upon someone who is not perfect therefore I need to get myself blameless and holy before God and then it is at that time I can present myself to God. It was not until two weeks ago that I realized God takes what little I have and uses it and makes it grander that I am not to live under the law like I do. And I know there are so many of these misconceptions that I need to get rid of. I know the only way to find out what they are to use it as a plume line against the word of God. Which I have been doing for a little while and a fiction book has really helped me see some of this stuff, but there is so much of it and I do not know where to begin to find the answers. I have recently noticed that I do not know the love of God in my life and do not know he loves me so I have been looking up in the Bible verses on the love of God trying to grasp it which I cannot seem to do. I know I need to also do this with the ideas of God not hurting me, of ideas on Him as my parent, to do it on ideas of fellowship of believers and other things, but it seems as if the more I look the more I see mistakes that I have learned and it is kind of freaky. But slowly I can get the weeding under control.
I actually had to create a vision board as an assignment for my counselor so I knew I had a purpose in life. I know can see where I want to be in the future and how I want to view myself. One of the big topics was on I want to have relationship with God the Father where I can crawl up in His arms and fully trust Him and that it would feel as if He was my Father. In addition to some of the earthly goals. It does help having that board because I have been in a rutt and it is giving me something to strive for to get out of this rutt. I feel my purpose is to glorify God in all I do whether good or bad. I do not know his plans but I know I can claim jeremiah 29:11.
I know Satan has planted a ton of weeds in the garden and misconceptions about God and who God is but the problem is sorting it all out. One example of it is that I was raised in church and one thing constantly being preached was living a sinless life and I have felt always compelled that I must hit this mark of perfection and to be saved or return to God that God cannot look upon someone who is not perfect therefore I need to get myself blameless and holy before God and then it is at that time I can present myself to God. It was not until two weeks ago that I realized God takes what little I have and uses it and makes it grander that I am not to live under the law like I do. And I know there are so many of these misconceptions that I need to get rid of. I know the only way to find out what they are to use it as a plume line against the word of God. Which I have been doing for a little while and a fiction book has really helped me see some of this stuff, but there is so much of it and I do not know where to begin to find the answers. I have recently noticed that I do not know the love of God in my life and do not know he loves me so I have been looking up in the Bible verses on the love of God trying to grasp it which I cannot seem to do. I know I need to also do this with the ideas of God not hurting me, of ideas on Him as my parent, to do it on ideas of fellowship of believers and other things, but it seems as if the more I look the more I see mistakes that I have learned and it is kind of freaky. But slowly I can get the weeding under control.
I actually had to create a vision board as an assignment for my counselor so I knew I had a purpose in life. I know can see where I want to be in the future and how I want to view myself. One of the big topics was on I want to have relationship with God the Father where I can crawl up in His arms and fully trust Him and that it would feel as if He was my Father. In addition to some of the earthly goals. It does help having that board because I have been in a rutt and it is giving me something to strive for to get out of this rutt. I feel my purpose is to glorify God in all I do whether good or bad. I do not know his plans but I know I can claim jeremiah 29:11.