Melissa,
Welcome to Oasis. You need a big hug.
Things seem dark and hopeless right now. The world is caving in on you and you are utterly helpless to stop it. Your emotions are running high and you are about to crack under all the pressure.
Sis, you gotta take a brain-break. Sit down and pray to the Lord. Tell Him all your problems and worries. Then tell Him you give it all to Him. Pray in the name of Jesus Christ. Let Him have control of all of this. Then sit back and relax for a few hours without even thinking about the issues. Read the gospel of John, Romans, Ephesians, or the Psalms for a while.
God is working in your life, whether you realize it or not. He is with you, waiting for you to give yourself to Him in complete trust and faith.
I know this firsthand, Melissa. I was in your shoes just a few weeks ago. Thought I was going to have a nervous breakdown from all the problems. But the Lord revealed He was with me. I will share the scripture that He shared with me. I had asked Him to show me through scripture that He was with me by me opening the bible and flipping to a random book. Oh, boy did He respond!
Job 22:21 Submit to God, and you will have peace;
then things will go well for you.
22 Listen to his instructions,
and store them in your heart.
23 If you return to the Almighty, you will be restored Â
so clean up your life.
24 If you give up your lust for money
and throw your precious gold into the river,
25 the Almighty himself will be your treasure.
He will be your precious silver!
26 Then you will take delight in the Almighty
and look up to God.
27 You will pray to him, and he will hear you,
and you will fulfill your vows to him.
28 You will succeed in whatever you choose to do,
and light will shine on the road ahead of you.
29 If people are in trouble and you say, Help them,'
God will save them.
30 Even sinners will be rescued;
they will be rescued because your hands are pure.