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[Tracy L]

Hi all my friends on here!
First of all, some of you know how I am feeling about failing my children and such in the past. I do have a praise report. Tonight one of my daughters called me (they are at their dad's for the weekend) and seems she has been calling her mentor from school, who happens to be the woman who has gotten all of us back into her church (praise God). Well, my daughter has gotten pretty close to Martha (her mentor). Well, unbeknownst to me, she calls Martha allot when she has issues and they PRAY together! Isn't that great! One of ya'll mentioned that maybe the Lord will chose to use another person besides me to disciple her. I think that might be the beginning of that. I was so elated. God is so GOOD that He would find someone to help my daughter through some of the things that are bothering her and lead her to Jesus even though I have missed the mark on that. And then I found out that my ex has been praying and reading the Bible with the kids.....woooohoooo. The kids have been pretty bummed lately about life cuz of what I did in the past but it looks like God is turning things around slowly but surely. I surely DO NOT deserve these blessings cuz of my sin but He is showing me such love and mercy that I cannot believe it!
Well, that is not the issue I have right now. It has been bothering me about what I should do for my Lord at this time in my life. Let me explain a bit about my past if ya'll could bear with me here. My marriage was not right to begin with as we were not in love and we were NOT on fire for Jesus when we met. It was a "fly by night" decision out of loneliness. Lasted 12 yrs until I commited adultery with someone online. By the time that this came about our marriage had been through the ringer. I can honestly say Jesus was NOT put FIRST in our lives. We teetered in and out of faith and church and we BOTH had serious issues which were not dealt with before the leap into the marriage (hence I encourage anyone considering marriage to Godly counseling to bring up any hinderances which should be brought out to light before the big event). We refused and disobeyed our pastors advice. Anyhow, that being water under the bridge, as a divorced, single parent, am I any use now for the Lord and His Kingdom? I know I am still a broken woman with many issues but I need some guidance for the Lord on how to live the rest of my life. I am currently back into church, working on my reading of my Bible and my restoration with God in every way I can think of. The locusts have eaten away many yrs due to my disobedience but from what I gather God can turn any sin into something good. I have come to my senses like the prodigal did in Luke. I have wallowed with the pigs in the slop and am hungry for the Lord again. From the things that are happening I slowly see God turning things around. Should I just keep seeking and knocking and then be patient? Should I study on how to be a virtious woman of God, like does He think of me as damaged goods now? Or am I a restored handmaiden to serve Him? This is a difficult thing for me to figure out and I definately WANT to be in HIS will this time. Not mine, God forbid. I would like to work on my issues that caused me to sin in the first place. Like my insecurities, lack of faith, loneliness, etc. The Lord in His Graciousness has removed the lust that I fell into and as long as I heed the warnings to stay farrrrr away from the temptation I will be alright to avoid that pitfall again.
Anyone have any advice for this divorced, seeking God woman here?
Thank you in advance my sis' and bros' in Christ.

Tracy

[Dora]

Tracy,
Praise God for the work he is doing in your life.
God is good.

When God cleanse something he doesn't leave it spotty.
White as snow sister!
You've repented, he forgave.
He's probably saying, "What'ya talking about child? I don't remember none of that."

One of my kids confessed a sin to me. In tears. The next night was feeling bad like that sin was still there, unforgiven. You know how that made me feel as his mom. Knowing he was forgiven and still carring the burden. Broke my heart. I had to hold back the tears. I don't remember what I said to him. We talked for a few minutes and he was able to let go of the guilt. He carried it that entire day and didn't have to. I hope and pray you're not carring any guilt that you don't need to carry. It's to big of a load. Forgiven is forgiven. Gone. No more. Washed clean away.

Get on that virtuous woman study and go be the woman of God he intended you to be. You are on your way. Getting closer every day. Isn't it wonderful how he molds us and makes us into what he wants from us.

God bless you.

[mlg]

Tracy, I encourage you to check out the virtuous woman study as well as the Many Called Few Chosen study. The Lord definitely has plans for you sis, and now is the time to focus on Him, and say Lord what can I do for you?

As for your children sis, it's great to see that the Lord is bring someone to witness to them, and to see your ex is reading his Bible is another blessing for sure. The Lord is good my sister and He is working for you, cuz He sees you growing in Him. Keep up the search sis, it's definitely worth the rewards.

luv ya