Christianity Oasis Forum

[crzychik]

Well today I made a rough draft of my miracle grow chart. I have never been one to keep charts, but I will do my best to follow this daily. I can already see that I do not do things "every day" and Im sure that this is a big part of my struggle with my growth in the Lord. I tend to procrastinate, even when it comes to praying...but I will put this before my path...

Today my son left with his dad to go stay at the hospital for a week, he is having his surgery tomorrow...He is so distant sometimes when he talks to me, I know it is normal for teens to be like that, but wow...it would be sooooo nice if he could just sit and talk with me about how he feels about everything...surgery, not going to school etc... lots of stuff.. But I guess the Lord has other plans.... This whole thing is in Gods hands. I am not even going this time..and I think it is actually the Lords will that I dont..I know it seems strange, but my son needs time away from me as I do him....I trust the Lord completely, but I fear sometimes that God may choose for him to even need a third surgery. I know I should not fear that, but it is a possibility, but I need to NOT fear because I KNOW that he is in Gods hands!!!!!!
digging up the weed of fear!!!!!!!!