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Its still very hard to keep going these days but I'm trying to work this out. My father just gave up on the relationship with my mother and got divorced long ago. I have found myself turning into my father and this process needs to be reversed for both our sakes. We are both on a downward spiral and things are very stressful and our brains are running at 120 percent, My feelings for her have always been growing since the day i met her. I cant let myself keep killing us like this. This is a very long road for both of us.


I'm holding onto to this one one thought right now and its about 1 person. For his daughter he changed overnight and has been the greatest person he always was but better that's what real love is, i need to do everything i can to tell my wife how i feel about her and that i care for both of us. But i cant just focus on that, I gave up a lot of things that are interfering me from doing that, ill be on step 4 for quite awhile but i need to change, i might not write a journal every day but ill be contuning to earn her trust back. My actions and words need to come togather as one to make each day better for both of us. I am not my father, I am a real human being that has always been broken and bare and she loved me for it. I need to do the same for her no matter what the cost.