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[Faithandlove]

I'm really struggling with this. My marraige. I guess I'm resenting having to be the one to initiate contact. It's been almost two years since we last had any contact and you would think that if someone loves you, then they would contact you. And it just makes me question this mans' love for me. I know I made a mistake, but for him to not want anything else to do with me because of it, makes me think his love for me is based on conditions only. Like if I did the right things or said the right words or was the perfect step mother to his daughter? I am VERY angry at having to be the one to try and reconnect, just to play the good wife/stepmother, while all the while, I'm miserable, resentful, angry and hurting. And all the while, I'm listen to God telling me to get intouch with him. He is telling me that it's ok. That He has everything under control. He has worked it all out. And yet, I can't bring myself to do it. At least not without expressing my anger, disappointments and resentfulness in the letter!

I mean, how can someone who claims to be a man of God, treat his wife this way??? The more I think about it/him, the angrier I get.

You know, God has been doing a great work in my life when it comes to me and deep searching myself. He has healed/delievered me in so many areas of my life, why not this? Maybe, I should write that letter and just get it all out of my system! Just tell him everything that's been on my heart and mind? Even if it comes out in anger.

Think I should? Any advise will greatly help!

[futurediary]

im also feeling the same way. But hang in there we are not alone. All we can do right now is to keep the communication lines going at full speed ahead there is always happiness around the corner, no matter how dark it is, just like the sunshine.