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Marie's Journal
Ok. I can do this. 14 days. If anyone reads this who has gone through the 14 days please share how it ended up for you.
Day 1.
I have been noticing lately that part of my mind thinks things that another part knows aren't so. Part A thinks negative thoughts, questions people, situations, intentions, myself. Part B realizes that the thoughts are for the most part untrue.
Why is it so hard to question peoples intentions, even when I know they are a good friend. Why am I unsure of myself, think badly of myself, even though I know that I had done my best, which was plenty good? Why do I think that people are trying to do me wrong, when in all reality I am probably not even on their mind?
Then, my teen was speaking to me today, and I feel so bad for him that I cannot help him. His mind continually goes, usually towards a negative thought pattern, just as mind. He second guesses and lacks motivation, all so that he can 'fail' (like in school) and then be upset that he didn't do well.
I know, part of it is due to situations of insecurity we have been through, part of it may be the enemy trying to get at us. I get tired, tired of pushing against it. Then I give in and isolate myself. I don't pick up the phone, I back out of social situations.
Live can be so difficult, and such a bummer.
But I must push forward. I must rely on God and put my hope in Him. I have no choice. I have two children to take care of, to be an example for. I have a job to do to make a living. I have other Christians who look to me to either be a leader to them or an example to them.
Thank you God. Thank you so much for my children. Help me get through this tough time. Thank you for giving me reasons to keep going forward. Thank you for putting friends in my life to continue to lift me up.
Day 1.
I have been noticing lately that part of my mind thinks things that another part knows aren't so. Part A thinks negative thoughts, questions people, situations, intentions, myself. Part B realizes that the thoughts are for the most part untrue.
Why is it so hard to question peoples intentions, even when I know they are a good friend. Why am I unsure of myself, think badly of myself, even though I know that I had done my best, which was plenty good? Why do I think that people are trying to do me wrong, when in all reality I am probably not even on their mind?
Then, my teen was speaking to me today, and I feel so bad for him that I cannot help him. His mind continually goes, usually towards a negative thought pattern, just as mind. He second guesses and lacks motivation, all so that he can 'fail' (like in school) and then be upset that he didn't do well.
I know, part of it is due to situations of insecurity we have been through, part of it may be the enemy trying to get at us. I get tired, tired of pushing against it. Then I give in and isolate myself. I don't pick up the phone, I back out of social situations.
Live can be so difficult, and such a bummer.
But I must push forward. I must rely on God and put my hope in Him. I have no choice. I have two children to take care of, to be an example for. I have a job to do to make a living. I have other Christians who look to me to either be a leader to them or an example to them.
Thank you God. Thank you so much for my children. Help me get through this tough time. Thank you for giving me reasons to keep going forward. Thank you for putting friends in my life to continue to lift me up.
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Hello agnesmac
Welcome to Oasis.
I love your determination. With determination like that I am certain you will do well on these steps.
Praying for you and your son.
Welcome to Oasis.
I love your determination. With determination like that I am certain you will do well on these steps.
Praying for you and your son.
Sorrow looks back, Worry looks around, But faith looks up! Live simply, love generously, care deeply, speak kindly and trust in our Creator who loves us.
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Dora - Posts: 3759
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Day 2
Seeds. It's all about the seeds- even the bad seeds. Whether it is a seed planted by genetics, causing our mind to function in a not so happy way; or a seed planted by our past experiences.
Hopefully as we continue to have Faith, the good seeds will outgrow the bad seeds.
It is hard to remember, as one is down and out, that the good seeds can be so beneficial. We get so caught up in our negativity that we cannot think about reading the Word and praying to God. Our good seeds do not get watered and fed, and the weeds start to choke them out.
It is imperative that we stay in God's Word and spend time with Him.
And, if we are on medication, it is imperative to take it regularly. That is one of my problems. It is not that I choose not to, but sometimes I forget. Then, while not on top of the game, I just 'don't' take it.
Father God, please continue to feed me, even when I am not feeding myself. Continue to draw me close so that when I start to stray I feel the need to turn back. Thank you Lord, for all that you have brought me through.
Hopefully as we continue to have Faith, the good seeds will outgrow the bad seeds.
It is hard to remember, as one is down and out, that the good seeds can be so beneficial. We get so caught up in our negativity that we cannot think about reading the Word and praying to God. Our good seeds do not get watered and fed, and the weeds start to choke them out.
It is imperative that we stay in God's Word and spend time with Him.
And, if we are on medication, it is imperative to take it regularly. That is one of my problems. It is not that I choose not to, but sometimes I forget. Then, while not on top of the game, I just 'don't' take it.
Father God, please continue to feed me, even when I am not feeding myself. Continue to draw me close so that when I start to stray I feel the need to turn back. Thank you Lord, for all that you have brought me through.
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Hello agnesmac, welcome to the Oasis. I personally have done the 14 day steps twice...yep you heard me say twice. The reason being is that in life everyday we face new trials and tribulations...and the first time I did the steps was to face the past...and the second time was to face certain current trials.
You are on your way to learning what God can really do for you and your children. I know you will be blessed.
Take care
You are on your way to learning what God can really do for you and your children. I know you will be blessed.
Take care
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mlg - Posts: 4428
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Amen
Your journal is blessing me and I am sure it blesses others. Keep on sister.
Your journal is blessing me and I am sure it blesses others. Keep on sister.
Sorrow looks back, Worry looks around, But faith looks up! Live simply, love generously, care deeply, speak kindly and trust in our Creator who loves us.
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Dora - Posts: 3759
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Hi Ag-Your struggle sounds alot like mine. I am on the 13th step, the seond time around. Ag- there is so much in these steps, you have to repeat them a bunch of times I think, until you really get the hang of controlling the bad thoughts. Of casting them out and replacing them with God's word. It's like learning to play an instrument. The first lessons just get you AWARE of the fundamentals, but them you have to practice, and practice and practice and practice. And all during those practices, you will make many mistakes. But don't quit. Keep going. Keep going. I know what you mean about sometimes you get tired and just want to quit pushing against it. Satan knows when we are at our weakest, and believe me, he will take advantage. He is an opportunist! So, it seems to help me if I resolve ahead of time that I will fall down. Then, at those times, I can remind myself that I will just keep trying. Please remember to be patient about God's solving your problem. And please remember that in the midst of struggling, God is using that to work STRENGTH in you. You really do get stronger. Its SO HARD, I know. But keep going. Keep going.-I will pray for you and your kids.-Fulsworld
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fulsworld - Posts: 20
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trust you me..You are NOT alone...
Thing is those thoughts you struggle with are stratigically placed there by the enemy (which you now know) is the DEVIL's playground so to speak...that's where the battle takes place mostly in our minds...it usually starts out with negative thoughts which lead to taking some sorta action (as in isolating yourself through depression and sense of helplessness) Now he has taken you to another level of self destruction in a sense...Cuz, you have fallen for his bait and he has drawn you into a state of gloominess , a heavy heart, and little to no hope...
But, you are not the only who goes or struggles with this...that is why the bible says we wrestle not against flesh and blood but principalities and forces of darkness (the devil in other words)
and, he also says that my people perish from the lack of knowledge...
meaning what you don't know can and will hurt you...
we often fail to realize that the battle truly is upclose and personal...
joyce meyers sells a book called battlefield of the mind I would seriously look into investing in it for you and your family...
God bless you and I hope this helps
xoxoxox mary xoxoxox
Thing is those thoughts you struggle with are stratigically placed there by the enemy (which you now know) is the DEVIL's playground so to speak...that's where the battle takes place mostly in our minds...it usually starts out with negative thoughts which lead to taking some sorta action (as in isolating yourself through depression and sense of helplessness) Now he has taken you to another level of self destruction in a sense...Cuz, you have fallen for his bait and he has drawn you into a state of gloominess , a heavy heart, and little to no hope...
But, you are not the only who goes or struggles with this...that is why the bible says we wrestle not against flesh and blood but principalities and forces of darkness (the devil in other words)
and, he also says that my people perish from the lack of knowledge...
meaning what you don't know can and will hurt you...
we often fail to realize that the battle truly is upclose and personal...
joyce meyers sells a book called battlefield of the mind I would seriously look into investing in it for you and your family...
God bless you and I hope this helps
xoxoxox mary xoxoxox
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mary hernandez - Posts: 98
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