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[michellelynn]

Well, I really read over this one a few times and feel kind of over whelmed. I work hard on forgiving all the time, and I know sometimes when I think I have forgiven, after a while I find there are times it comes back and I am still angry about it and find I have still not truly forgiven the act or let it go. It doesn't happen often, but it bothers me that it is still there when I really worked hard on letting go and forgiving.

I find that every so often, and I am talking like every few years, I still feel a small sting of the pain of past hurts, and I think that is what it is holding on.... I thought I worked though all that pain and anguish but maybe somewhere deep down inside there must be some left for it still to haunt me. How do I forgive, when I am not sure why it is still there to forgive when it isn't important to me any more? I let go of these pains, hurts, years ago and forgave and let go. I really need to figure it out.

Anyway, this is my step on forgiveness. Working of figuring out what inside me is holding me back and also, I know there is still an anger in me with this as well I need to get rid of and I think this will end if I figure it out as well, if this makes any sense to any of you.....

[mlg]

Hey michellelynn,

This makes sense for sure...because I struggled with unforgiveness towards my ex for many years...and I would think I had cleaned all the hurt and pain out...and it would come back...and I'd get all upset again. I think what helped me the most was to make a forgiveness list...I wrote down on paper the person I wanted to forgive and all the transgressions they had ever caused against me that I was still carrying the hurt....then once I laid these down...I was able to let go forever. It's been a great flight of freedom.

I pray you will find what unforgiveness is still holding you back and that you too can lay it at the feet of Jesus and leave it there.

luv ya

[momof3]

Hi michellelynn

Remember too, that the enemy knows how to push our buttons. So...he will whisper these things...these reminders of past pain and sin into our ears...and there we go..off and running through another bout of anger, resentment...hurt..

This is what the weeding is all about. When unforgiveness comes back...the minute one of these thoughts enter in again, we have to run as fast as we can back to Jesus and leave these things at His feet...and forgive over and over and over till its gone. When we let it take root again, pull it back up with the Holy Spirit and pray and praise Him that His Grace is enough...and leave it with Him again. Take those thoughts captive and cast em down again...easy? no..but it is possible through the Lord...and we have to weed every day..some days, every minute.

God bless you sis..you are doing an awesome job..just keep pushing through.

in Jesus,
love momo

[Dora]

Hello michellelynn

Don't let it over whelm you sis.

Pray for His help.

If we didn't keep falling we wouldn't keep needing Christ.

luv ya