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I have made it through days 1 and 2 and i am now on day 3. i am already feeling better and closer to God. I am ready to share a little more about my self and my past with you. I am ready to confess my sins and continue to move on and regain my faith and trust in the Lord.

When i was younger I attended a private school until i was in jr high. when i got into high school i got into the sex and the drugs and partying. in which i lost my way. i became pregnant at the age of 17. i sobered up long enough to have my son. after which i went back to my old ways. i was a single unmarried mother. i sought help for my addiction and got myself back on track. i was engaged to my sons father who at the time was in the army. When he came out home i found that he had already married someone else. so i feel back into the revenge trap by sleeping with his best friend. i thouhgt that if i got back at him it was ok. we did eventually did get married and had a nother child, but it ended in divorce. he chested on me i cheated on him and finally when i knew it was over i tried to save my marriage not only for the children but because i knew divorce was wrong in God's eyes.

When i finally accpected that it was over i found another guy who i thought was the one. we got together and be didn't;t follow the no sex before marriage rule and i didn't base our relationship around God. he left after finding out i was pregnant with his son. I moved in with my mother who i have been with since.

I lost my faith and blamed God for the problems i was having instead of looking at myself and putting the blame where it belonged on myself. I have tried it alone and i tried to do things my way only to realize i need help, I need God in my life.

Now i am here to let go of my past and move on in my future. I have been reunite with a wonderful man who i have known for years and we are planning to get married, but before we can do that i need to get right with God. We both believe that we were sent to each other by God for a reason.

[momof3]

yep, we so often blame God for our independent decisions..decisions we didnt make based on His will for our lives..but sis, He uses those decisions to teach us, reach us, grow us, and help us...then, He uses those decisions to help someone else who's on that path we were on. He is amazing...and you, my sister, are forgiven. We come from the same place....He gives us a free will and we all blame Him when we use it apart from His will for us and mess it all up. you are so not alone in that. His love is unconditional, sis. Through everything, He loves you. Release all the guilt and shame you carry to Him. It was nailed to the cross and covered by His blood.

Im so glad you are here...that He led you here. Keep going...there is so much freedom and love He wants to show you..and so much more for you life that He has planned.

in Jesus,
love momo

[mlg]

Day 3 wonderful!!! The past often is a stepping stone in life that will later become a beautiful testimony for God if we are willing to heal and grow closer to Jesus and then in turn share with others what God can do. As I read what you have been through, I was thinking about how God has lifted you up out of the past and is now bringing you to a place of beauty and life. God never left you nor forsaked you...but knew that you...His precious child...could be so much more than you believed you could be...but now you are seeing what He sees in you...Hope and love.

God will bless you for seeking Him and wanting to grow closer to Him...He loves you so very much...He has great plans ahead for you.

Keep pushing through the steps.

luv ya