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August 06, 2010
God,

I want to say I'm sorry for what I have been lately. You sit there on your throne and I know you are not happy with what you see. I am sitting here trying to get others to see me and in a small way I want attention but most of all I want others to solve my problems of me. God please show me how you want me to do this. I know for a fact I need to look to you. I need to stop relying on myself to get by with things because I can't do a thing. God show me that I need you. Give me a yearning to want to seek to run to you. I know that I can't do a thing by myself. God I want to ask forgiveness. Forgive me for not coming to you. That I have been going to everyone but you. I'm sorry that I have just straight up ignored you when you have been crying for me to come to you. I'm sorry for hurting you. I have this pain in my chest that I know I have hurt you God and I really did mess up bad. God I'm sorry that I have went through your temple, my body, and destroyed it. God I took a razor blade and sliced up my wrists and my leg, I have had sex and let sexual immoralities all over your temple. I let alcohol and drugs into this temple and I stole. God I'm not worthy of your love or forgiveness. God please cast Satan to the bottomless pit. I don't need him I can't have him controlling me anymore. If I let him control me I can't let you control me. I know I need to stop dancing for Satan and you God. I'm sorry that I have let this rule my life for so long. God please clean me and make me whiter than snow. Cleanse me so that I am pure enough to see just a mere glimpse of your glory. God I know that you have so much better than I see. God you are sitting there saying, Megan please reach out and take my hand child because I want to help you

Be still, and know that I am God;I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth. Ps 46:10

it aint been long and im ready to fall back again. ... does it really matter in the end anyways?

Hello BabyAngel,

Does it matter? Of course it matters.

I want you to look what you wrote, just 3 days ago. Was it genuine? Were you really feeling what you wrote?

Jesus is right there, you just can't see Him. Talk to Him. Remember, He's God -- the One Who created everything, including you. Remember, Jesus is the One that died and rose again, so you and I and everyone that calls on the blessed name of Jesus can have eternal life with Him in Heaven.

Reach, child, Reach!!! Reach for Jesus. Call out His name.

I'm sending up prayers for you. God's blessed will be done.

God bless and keep you.
Love,
Mack