Leaps's Journal

[Leaps4Joy]

June 30, 2009


Staying at Cousin's house and have been here for a week now.

Just taking care of her since she had surgery in Friday. Things

seem to be going ok with her, just in some pain is all. I am supposed

to go home on Sunday, but def. not looking forward to it.....

I'm having a good time here, although I hate babysitting the lil kid

because he is mean but its ok, i'm working on it and hoping that he

will chill out some before I have to leave on Sunday. Working hard

to get her house clean for a big party on July 4th. Not much to say

right now....

soooo im out of here!

[Leaps4Joy]

July 5th, 2009

Why can't people understand is the big question on my mind....
Some people just dont care who they hurt and who there target
is.... weither they have been friends for a few days or even 2
years....They see it as a target, you get so close and then
BAM it hits ya and they are gone, they have hurt ya and then there
out of there. I pray that people like this will understand this isnt
going to get you anywhere in life.... hurting people ripping there
insides out and running away. It's not worth it....

Yesterday was the 4th of July and I spent some much needed
time with my cousin and her family. Had a small party for my 16th
on that side, and will have my big party Sat. The older you get
the harder decessions become.... Do you spend time with your family
or do you be a teen and get out of your house? It's the summer and
you want out of the house before school starts back up.

Been gone for 12 days and finally back home for a few before I begin
my journey else where. Having a great summer so far despite the
bumps thats been added, but I know they are there for a purpse only
and not to hurt me in any way. Praying for strenght and incouragement
to bring something up to my cousin as well as somthing to my parents
that needs to be delt with.

Meet a few new teens in chat today..... Glad to see more teens coming
in that is for sure.... Some old teens coming back to visit in the middle
of there summer is fantastic as well..... Many new faces in chat lately.
Havent been able to talk to many been on the go, hopefully will have
some time to talk with them and welcome them to the Oasis.

Well im out got 2 free day's and then I shall be 16

[Leaps4Joy]

July 10th, 2009

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by
means of luck. Illness, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer
stupidity all occur to test faith!

And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible,
painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming
those obstacles you would never realize your purpose, strength, or heart.

Things happen for a reason.... This here is something that I am trying
to get across... Things do happen for a reason I understand that, but at
times it seems like only the bad can happen. I know im being tested right
now, and am I so glad about that... But it seems things keep building up.
Things are getting better, we had a long talk last night at my house with
my mom, cousin and myself.... Things seem to be looking great!
Tomorrow is my birthday party and I things will go great..
I have no doubt that they will because things are looking good at home
and with my cousin.

I have started the counseling program and bloging to someone. Im on day
two and things....

Thank you all for being there and willing to listen when I need someone
to talk to!

Love ya all! ♥

[Leaps4Joy]

July 13th, 2009


Finally done with birthday party's!
Had a great party Sat. with friends and family..
Ended up getting plastered with iceing in an
iceing fight.... Went to my cousins for 2 days
after that....... Got back home today....
Things are going better then they were1

I was asked to post pics. of the two cakes I ended up
having by Lizzie soooooooooo lizzie these are for you!



This is prob. my favorite of the two by looks....





This one here tasted better then the other one but didnt look as good.

[Leaps4Joy]

July 22nd, 2009


Been really busy lately.... And that I dont mind... It takes my mind
off the things Im trying to work out and get rid of..... I have realized
in the last few days, that talking to someone in a calm manner when
you are angery with them is way better then being rude and talk to
them with an attitude.... This might even help get more through to them.
Went working over the weekend after being called in.... She called me
Wed. morning and wanted me that afternoon till Monday or Tuesday...
I said fine, packed my stuff and was on my way.... Sunday rolled around
and I just couldnt take anymore.... I wanted to go home so badly but
didnt want to ask to use a phone to call my parents to see if they would
come and get me.... Well it was about 2:30-3:00 and my mom called...
Thank goodness... She talked to the boss for a bit and asked when we
were coming home, she said prob. tomorrow but she wasnt for sure...
Well about that time the boss had to go work the window because I was
making funnel cakes.... and handed me the phone and told me to talk
to my mom.... I was talking to my mom and she said u know, u are really
missed here at home..... I said I miss being home... I dont know if I can
make it here any longer.... I said I want to be home! She told my dad and
he said that they would be in to get me in about 45 min. because that is
what it takes to get to where I was away from my house.....
Well this was a big suprise to me because in most cases they wouldnt
have came and got me.... I would have been told to just wait and that I
would be home soon.... Well my parents and I have been talking thanks
to a few people who have helped me through this process.... With this
talking I think it has brought us all closer....
I have prayed for months that he would guide us to being closer and
things being a lot smoother here at home....

THE LORD ANWSER'S PRAYERS!
Not that u all didnt know that and not that I didnt know that.... But the last
few months here have been a bit rough and Iv been praying things would
get better and I wasnt seeing the light.... But things are going great now!

My mom and I went to get my hair done today, went shopping for a new
bathing suit for KY, and got some hair stuff and some new clothes for KY
as well...... We had a great time despite the fact it took 3 hours for them
to do my hair... But mom sat there through it all

Everyone but my mom will be heading down to Kentucky, Friday morning
and will be down there for 10 days..... We will be spending this time with
my Aunt.... AKA Tres..... It will be a great time....Gonna spend some time
with tres and talk to her

1 John 3:1 (NIV) How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that
we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason
the world does not know us is that it did not know him.

OK all Im out....
Be blessed in him!

GBu alll!

[Leaps4Joy]

Monday, June 27,2009


At tres' and will be here till Sunday... Having a great time...
Nothing to exciting really since the last time I wronte....
Things seem to be going good... PTL!

Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take
courage; wait for the Lord! (Psalm 27:14)

[Leaps4Joy]

Tuesday June 28th, 3009

Having a great time at tres' today....Even though we have
5 more days left here, its hard to think that I gotta leave again
and the possibility of not seein tres for another year is there.
Being 16 some would think that I wouldnt have such a hard time
and cry when I gotta leave tres, but some dont realize how close
tres and I are..... Even though I wasnt around tres at the gathering
much, when it came time for her to leave and she came up to give
me a hug, the tears started rollin.... its so hard....

A cousin and I decided we wanted to show tres that we really did
care so we decided that we were gonna get her some flowers....
We got back to the house, Rose and I stayed outside and wrote a
letter for tres signed it, and then I came back inside, ran bk to the
computer room, and had rose hand the flowers to me through the
window. I then placed them on her desk and stuck the letter inside
the flowers..... It was about 30-45 min before she went back and found
them. She came back up and about had us cryin (Rose and I) But
it was so nice to be able to show someone that we really did care and
it didnt have to be something big to do this with.....

The other day, we were driving down the road, on our way to take my
grandmother back to her brothers house where she was stayin because
she was up from Tennessee.... .Well while driving down the road, I looked
up and seen this :



This picture here looks like open hands... The open hands that the Lord
has towards us no matter what. We can turn and run to him and he has
his hands opened wide like in these clouds.

Mom moved up in the work line at work! The Lord
is sooooo good!


You know how sometimes it seems that life is just throwing you one
curved ball after another? Well, guess what, - you have a great way to
respond! - you can use any excuse, any at all to be happy. Don't just
soap your body in the shower - caress it and receive pleasure from
touching and being touched. Don't just walk on the street - enjoy the
fragrances of the trees and the flowers on your way. Don't just drive your
car - sing along with some Christian songs....
This is what I am learning at this moment! No matter how rough life might
be, there is always something to be happy about....



Well this is all for now!


GBu all!

[Leaps4Joy]

Aug. 3, 2009


Back home from Tres' and PW's..... It was hard to leave as always.
It seems to get harder each time to leave. We had a great time while
we were down there. Would love to have been able to stay longer but
we had to get back home to my mom. Amusement park was great had
a fantastic time. Rain held off till the end when we were gettin close to
leavin. Would love to live closer to tres and pw, we will see what the
Lord has in plan and if this will happen. Supposed to go school shoppin
today.....

School starts the 21st of Aug!

Not much too write about..


GBu all!

[Leaps4Joy]

Early Aug. 5, 2009


Nothing really to exciting went on yesterday.... We did manage to go shopping for school stuff on Monday.... My oh My I didnt know as u got older the harder it would be to find clothes you like, I managed to go through 3 stores before we got one top and another 2 more before I found any jeans I liked Parents didnt mind much though, it was family time that we got to spend together.... We went out to dinner at a Chinese Resteraunt...... My Family loves this place, and we all agreed to it so it was easy to decide there... After leavin home at about 5:30 - 6:00 yesterday evening we managed to make it back to my house at about 11 Late night but oh was it fun.... I have broke several flip flops this year so we were looking for a good deal on those as well, We went into Old Navy because thats where I usually get flip flops.... I managed to get 4 pairs for 10.00 .... I was like! O.o This aint bad at all! I got Navy Blue, Reg. blue, purple, and brown So now I got a pair of flip flops to match everything I wear The only colors I am in need of right now is orange and yellow.... Im not sure I am gonna need an Orange pair though I honestly hate the color orange

Keep wondering if it really is the Lord's will for us to move... it seems things are beginning to open up as time goes on..... My dad is going to start lookin for a job in the new area/state ...... I was very learly on this not long ago, but now as I think about it..... I would love to be able to move and be close to family that live there in that area..... Also no matter if I want it to happen or not, the Lord's will, will be done in it anyways.... I want to go back to Kentucky but that will be here before we know it and if it is the Lord's will I will be living there before to much longer anyways A cousin and I got closer while in KY I didnt know we would get along so well or I would have talked to her a long time ago But maybe it was a good idea to hold off till this last visit... God had a plan in it I know and thats all that matters!

Another one went yesterday..... A lovely Christian Lady on my real mom's side of the family passed away.... She was a strong Christian Woman who had lived a wonderful life....Just turned 95 last week..... Her last request was granted.... She wanted to pass away at home, they got her home about 12:30 or so and she passed away at 4:37 I think is what I was told...... Its sad to see someone we love pass on but I havent cried, I know she is in a better place now, with no more pain or suffering.... She's walkin with her loved one's and our Heavenly father..... Such a precious soul!!!


Found out another aunt might have cancer on my real mom's side.... this just makes people worry even more... Because this is the 3rd person on real mom's side that has gotten it...... My Aunt they think that has it now, wont listen to anyone about Jesus, and him dieing for her and her getting saved or anything so it worries me.... All I can do now is pray that she will see this, and give her life to him.... Before my grandmother passed away though she was the sameway, and the week before she passed on she turned her life over..... My aunt might be the same way.... Im not sure but all I can do for her now is


Im so ready for school to start, it sounds odd but im one of the odd kids that like homework and enjoy doing it Towards the end of the year it gets old and I kinda slack off a bit but im so ready for it... This year will be my first year for Piano and FEA (Future Educators or America) its for those High schoolers that want to go on to college to become a teacher.... And that is me!!! For years now I have wanted to be a teacher, I have prayed about it as well, and I feel that is what he wants me to do....
I feel my purpose in life is to help people, and being a teacher is helping people.....


Life seems to beginning to ease up now... Hit a bump in the road there for awhile but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and all my happiness is back it seems or atleast its gettin there..... Im ready for the gathering next year... Miss some of the ones that I got to meet in May, and would love to meet others in the next one...... Not sure when its gonna be..... Parents and I have prayed about it and feel lead to host again..... But prayin for a time and date..... I believe its gonna be in June though but not sure when... Would like for it to be a week though..... And plan on it but still a lot of planning to do that is for sure......


Well this is all for now... Seems like I have wrote a book tonight... Just full of Joy and energy right now.....

GB and I love you all!!!


*I am truely Blessed by the best!*

[Leaps4Joy]

Aug. 7th, 2009


Woke up late today.... Had a weird dream so it startled me awake... When I finally woke up I heard some amazing music!!! My sister had on some Christian music on.... She says she dont like my music on most days, but today she must have because she had it on..... Tomorrow is my dad's birthday..... so mom and I gonna have a party for him tomorrow evening.... Not to many people gonna be there for it... He aint fond of havin many people around....

Today was the funneral for the lady on my mom's side of the family, sadly I didnt get to go to it.... I sent my cousin something to read at the funneral for me and that was all I could do..... Gonna go stay with cousin Monday through Sunday next week....... She needs some time away from the house and away from the boys, so we are gonna go down and stay at the river take some pictures, go on the river, and just spend some much needed time together before I head back to school whenever that starts...


Hopeing to get some much needed cleaning done in my room today and get my desk cleaned up before school starts so I have somewhere to do homework.... Room needs to be cleaned as well... Im missing some orginizational things that I need for my locker as well as my desk.......


Proverbs 15:18
A hot-tempered man stirs up dissension, but a patient man calms a
quarrel.


Gotta reg. for school on Tuesday yay!!!


Well hope you all have a great weekend!!!


GB and Love ya all!!

[Leaps4Joy]

Aug. 19, 2009

Been awhile since I wrote... Life's been a bit busy lately it seems.... Between vacation, going to cousins, and gettin ready for school as well as other things.... Its been a bit crazy.....

School starts on Friday! Def. ready for that! Been looking for a job as well, put n a few applications in some places just a wait and see process right now....

My dad is in Kentucky right now looking for a job.... My family wants to move down there.... I have certain feelings about doing either... Im really looking forward to my dad gettin a job down there, but im havin a hard time right now thinkin about it.... But as I was told... Its not here yet so dont worry myself with something that is in the future.... It would be great to live down there by tres and family though!!!!

Had 2 great things happen yesterday.... First off I got an actual piano!!! Im def. happy about that... Im taking piano this year at school so its gonna be cool Its not a keyboard either its the real deal The 2nd thing that was really good news.... I was asked to be a GodMother yesterday evening...... A big responsibility that is for sure but I believe I can handle it if something does happen..... So I am now a Godmother of 2 kids a 4 year old and an 8 year old..... I told the mom last night, I said now that I said yes, dont let anything happen to you Im still a lil young to be raiseing two kids.... one half my age But it is still a great honor that is for sure

Def. looking forward to starting school on Friday!!! As I stated before I am a weird kid that happens to love school.... why idk but I do.... Love being there and learning new things


Well this is all for now... .Im out..


Will write more later!!

GB and Love ya all!!!


"The Lord is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and abounding in
mercy." (Psalm 103:8)

[Leaps4Joy]

Sept. 1,2009

Well its been sometime since I have had time to write in here... But now that I have time to sit down and write something I thought that it would be a good ideea...

I have now moved and live in Kentucky..... We (Tres, my dad, and I) will be going bk up there in a few weeks to get everything packed up and moved down here.... It has been a rough road the last week or so... Parents have split up and she is causeing a lot of issues.... But I will say that things are gettin a lot better and I feel a lot better then I have in a long long time.... i appriciate all of you that have been here for me through all of this, you dont know how much I appriciate it....

I start school up here tomorrow so we shall see how it goes... I have no doubt that all will go well and that I will like it... Gonna be a lil odd at first... They have been in school for 5 weeks and Im just now starting... Some classes I will be fine in, and other classes I have to make up the 5 weeks of school because I didnt have grades up in IL or I didnt have the class at all... gonna be hard at first.. But I know that all will be fine....

Think that being here in KY will be great....


Well I think that this is all for now..

GB and Love ya all!