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[Dora]

Every time I start feeling like I'm not doing enough and start seeking my purpose or calling I feel drawn to the bible. I ask Him to show me what verse he wants me to read.


And every single time the verse has been....


John 21:17
He saith unto him the third time, Simon, son of Jonas, lovest thou me? Peter was grieved because he said unto him the third time, Lovest thou me? And he said unto him, Lord, thou knowest all things; thou knowest that I love thee. Jesus saith unto him, Feed my sheep.


Geesh He surely knows how much I hate cooking! And McDs probably causes cancer. So maybe He'll do the cooking and I can just serve it up.

[goldieluvs]

pine

u dont havta cook for wat ur giving out sis.. uur purpose isn't to cook... its to feed da word and love of Jesus which u do so well with..


luv ya

[Dora]

My mind is so full of things in life that I can't think.

Stress. It zaps everything from me.

All I want to do is sleep because I'm so mentally exhausted.

How can I feed the sheep if I can't think or concentrate.

[goldieluvs]

Sis Holy Spirit is feeding sheep. U just willing vessel is all, I see u do it everyday in chat and forums. Sounds like ur under a lil stress. maybe spend some time relaxing and some quiet time wif God. Maybe come up wif a plan when ur feeling all stressed out of some things to do that help u unwind.

Aww i know that feeling of all wanting to do is sleep, just kinda coming out of that . Will keep u in sis.. know He has ya. Sometimes its like weight of world is on ur shoulders,,, but it just feels that way. It isn't Truth. Jesus is helping ya sis... spend a lil time each day just relaxing, away from kids and hubby spend some quality time with the Father.

Am here anytime u wanna talk,,, luvs u much

[Dora]

Today has been terrific.

Very quiet. This morning I took my bible into the woods to the cross there and read Psalm 51 and prayed. Was fabulous.

There's a joke in Michigan that our state bird should be the Mosquito. Cause they are so big here. I'm setting there in the woods reading and thoughts fully on the Lord, which is difficult at home because of all the noise. Then the mosquitoes find me and begin making me their meal. I was getting frustrated and shared with the Lord that my desire was to be there but I'm being ate alive. Then I realized that I'm the Lords and the mosquitoes are too. and that it's not the Lords will that I am distratcted by them or that I have to leave because of them. So I told them to leave in Jesus name. And they did. I was like, wow! Continued my study and praying. I just love my time there so much! I would live there if I could.

Sitting there the thought came to me that the cross would look wonderful with a climbing rose planted near it. But that wouldn't work because there's to many trees there. Roses need more sun than what is offered there.

But the thought wouldn't stop coming. Even after I went home all I could think about was planting a climbing rose there. Then I remembered I had a climbing rose that needed moved. It had belonged to my dad. After he died I dug it up and brought it to my house. But we moved and I left it there because I wasn't real good growing it. It has not been tended to for 4 years now. I'm surprised it's still alive. The herbs I had planted years ago and weeds have swallowed it.

After hours of thinking about this I dug up the rose bush and talked it through the woods to the cross and planted it there under the cross. I just keep thinking if this thing survives it's by the grace of God. If it ever blooms it will be a miracle.

So Fathers Day I planted my dads rose under the cross where I spend time seeking my Father. It felt good to be mindful of the Lord and do something for Him today. Like a sacrifice or offering. Anyhow while I was planting the rose the skeeters were back in full force.

[Dora]

Today I grieved the Holy Spirit.

I had begun working on making the cross in the woods a more comfortable place.

I kept it secret all this time but now wish to share the area at times. So I began a path, clearing trees, logs, leaves, and marking the path. Part of this reason was because I've been getting turned around in the woods. So it'll make it easier for me to get to it and home with out stopping to figure out which way to go.

I felt this was ok. But today I walked to the cross and maybe it was just my reason for being there wasn't pure. It wasn't to meet God, but to survey the work I wanted to do.

I felt like I hurt His feelings. Like He was so anxious for me to visit and when I finally showed up in our special place I was only there for work, not for Him.

I had never felt this when I went to the cross. It's always been an amazing feeling of His presence and peace. A place I never wanted to leave once I got there. But today was different. I'm going to slow down on the work and make sure it's done with Him and for Him in His time. Not in a rush. So to not steal our time together.

The rose I planted there on Fathers Day looks nice. It does seem bigger as if it's grown already. I wouldn't be surprised if it has. I am expecting it will do very well there.

My thoughts when in the woods were on how God doesn't want sacrifice or offering. Instead He wants us and our love and attention.

[xxJILLxx]

My thoughts when in the woods were on how God doesn't want sacrifice or offering. Instead He wants us and our love and attention.

amen, just like when my kids go out and buy me something as a gift they sacrificed their money but i would rather they just sit and talk with me and let me love on them.

Dont we have an awesome Daddy?

Love ya sis!

Jill

[Dora]

Amen Jill!

I went to the cross yesterday. Not to work! But to spend time with Him. I felt like he was standing off a distance. It just felt different.

I stood telling Him how sorry I was. I went to leave but felt Him calling me back. We stood and just talked. When it was getting dark I asked Him to come with me. He told me to hold out my hand. I did and He held my hand as we walked home.

I love my Lord. He is tender.

Today I'd like to work on part of the path to the cross that is to thick and hard to get through. Which may require help of a big bear. He said he'd help me today. But first thing is first this time. Time with the Father.

[goldieluvs]

awwwwwwwwwwww nice pine!

[Dora]

My heart aches with in me. Not for myself. My life is fine. Praise God. It's for others. It's like watching a wave come in. It begins as just a small line in calm water. As it gets closer the line turns white and larger. By the time the wave hits shore it's larger than you thought. This morning I see the wave and tossed around with in it as it approaches the shore is many people. Drowning. I saw this wave coming. I try to help but many are so turned around they can't even figure out what way is up. Some find how to look up and the waves churns them some more. Some are so angry that the wave is churning them that they lash out at me. Some on the beach choking from the water, some have recovered and are on their feet, stumbling as they walk and still weak. Some have given up and drowned.

[deetu]

but tell the rest pine.
it is an encouragement for the workers...

you cannot and are not to carry the burden for yourself

[Dora]

Yes dee..sometimes what I see is so disturbing that I stop the show. It's when I work though the horror of what I've already seen that I allow myself to see the rest.

What I saw was the one who finally made it to their feet and began to walk or stumble until they completely were able to walk, then someone came rushing to them to wrap them in a big white towel and talk to them and care for them.

Perhaps there are many afraid of wading into the waves to rescue someone, to show them which way is up, where to find the light, because they feel they will be downed by the wave. So they stay in their safe homes until the person is able to nearly recover then they rush out.

We all have our purposes. We need those who are ready with the towel to continue to help and strengthen those who are on their feet, but where are the workers when it comes to the ones who are still choking, or the ones who can't find which way is up or the ones who dive deep into the currant to rescue the ones who have drowned.

The workers are few. We need to pray for workers for the harvest. People are drowning out there.