Mirror, Mirror
Posted: Mon May 05, 2014 2:52 amplease read with care.
this may be very hard to read and has some language, but it is how i felt about my abuse.
during one of my recent flashbacks, i kept switching back and forth from me as a little girl and me now as an adult.
but for the first time, I asked Jesus to be there during the flashbacks.
these are the words that came out of me.
Mirror Mirror
Mirror, mirror on the wall,
Tell me who is the best of all?
I know it is never me,
But can you show me how to be?
Mirror, mirror on the wall,
Tell me who is the worst of all?
I know it is me,
But can you tell me how not to be?
Mirror, mirror, I know it is sad,
Cuz people know I am bad.
That is why they make me s*ck.
That is why they make me f*ck.
Mirror, mirror, I had a heart.
They saw it and still ripped it apart.
They destroyed my mind and my soul.
That was their ultimate goal.
Mirror, mirror, tell me what is wrong with me?
Why can I not just live and just be?
Why can I not just jump on my unicorn and just fly?
Just fly up to the rainbow in the sky?
Mirror, mirror, I want to again dance.
Little me and my unicorn used to prance.
But I made grandpa sick and weak.
So daddy made me the crippled freak.
Mirror, mirror, I hate being in the closet in the dark.
I scream, but that is always such a lark.
Why can I not ever touch the light?
Why can I not ever win this fight?
Mirror, mirror, they took my life.
So why am I still here? Why am I still alive in this strife?
Why did they steal that soul of mine?
Why do I smile and act like I am fine?
Mirror, mirror, I am in pain, always in too much pain.
I wish my spirit could once again dance in the rain.
But that can never be, so I wish I could die.
Cuz maybe that is the only way my pain will say good-bye.
Mirror, mirror, who is that i see?
Who is that standing next to me?
You know who is standing by your side.
There is no reason no more to hide.
What they did to you caused more than sighs.
What they forced you to do caused more than cries.
As a child, to stay alive, your brain was split.
But untouched will forever be your spirit.
Mirror, mirror, now I finally know.
I am loved much, that is so.
I have soared and can again.
Cuz the enemy will never win.
Mirror, mirror, now I finally see.
A reflection that is truly me.
Radiating from within so bright.
A beautiful, Glorious light.
ty for listening
ann
this may be very hard to read and has some language, but it is how i felt about my abuse.
during one of my recent flashbacks, i kept switching back and forth from me as a little girl and me now as an adult.
but for the first time, I asked Jesus to be there during the flashbacks.
these are the words that came out of me.
Mirror Mirror
Mirror, mirror on the wall,
Tell me who is the best of all?
I know it is never me,
But can you show me how to be?
Mirror, mirror on the wall,
Tell me who is the worst of all?
I know it is me,
But can you tell me how not to be?
Mirror, mirror, I know it is sad,
Cuz people know I am bad.
That is why they make me s*ck.
That is why they make me f*ck.
Mirror, mirror, I had a heart.
They saw it and still ripped it apart.
They destroyed my mind and my soul.
That was their ultimate goal.
Mirror, mirror, tell me what is wrong with me?
Why can I not just live and just be?
Why can I not just jump on my unicorn and just fly?
Just fly up to the rainbow in the sky?
Mirror, mirror, I want to again dance.
Little me and my unicorn used to prance.
But I made grandpa sick and weak.
So daddy made me the crippled freak.
Mirror, mirror, I hate being in the closet in the dark.
I scream, but that is always such a lark.
Why can I not ever touch the light?
Why can I not ever win this fight?
Mirror, mirror, they took my life.
So why am I still here? Why am I still alive in this strife?
Why did they steal that soul of mine?
Why do I smile and act like I am fine?
Mirror, mirror, I am in pain, always in too much pain.
I wish my spirit could once again dance in the rain.
But that can never be, so I wish I could die.
Cuz maybe that is the only way my pain will say good-bye.
Mirror, mirror, who is that i see?
Who is that standing next to me?
You know who is standing by your side.
There is no reason no more to hide.
What they did to you caused more than sighs.
What they forced you to do caused more than cries.
As a child, to stay alive, your brain was split.
But untouched will forever be your spirit.
Mirror, mirror, now I finally know.
I am loved much, that is so.
I have soared and can again.
Cuz the enemy will never win.
Mirror, mirror, now I finally see.
A reflection that is truly me.
Radiating from within so bright.
A beautiful, Glorious light.
ty for listening
ann
