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There were many nights

I spent

pleading for a change

There were many nights

in silence

teardrops conquered

my struggling eyelids

There were many times

the heartache came

in furious convulsions

and I prayed somehow

I'd finally see

beauty beyond this sorrow

But the things that I had hoped for

never snuggled here

beside me

The comfort never came

in the things that I can see

but I know it does not modify

the power of Your plan

and though my calloused

and creased palms

don't hold the things

that I had hoped for

I will not be discouraged

and I will trust You still

There were mornings

that I awoke

drowsy in the darkness

with an obligation to prayer

so I spoke against my pillow

and whispered through my unkempt hair

words of deep complexity

since I seldom knew

what I should ask

but I know You saw

my heart's intent

and I learned how love demands

and though now I feel punctured

and clumsily disposed

I will not doubt the sovereign purpose

and I will love You still

There are memories

I'd like to wash away

but like scars

only time can fade them

and there are some things

I remember

that I pray I won't forget

Love can lace itself up well

and pull a knot

within my chest

I don't know what I feel right now

I just know that it hurts

I view the remnants

of what once was

and a softening peace

glides over me

so even in this unlit space

I will praise You still

There is noise

all around me

and I strain to hear You through it

I wrestle with angst

despite myself

and the purpose that You've shown me

It is so hard

to just let go

of all that I'd dismayed

to dream

and I struggle

just to settle for

the way You've grown me through this

But I do believe

there's more than I can see

or ever comprehend

So even when the silence comes

and I cannot hear You speaking

I will hold my faith in place

and I will just be still

Thanks for sharing. Be still as we hear the spirit talk within. His purpose is for our benefit, and trials will strengthen us.