Daily christan walk
Posted: Wed Apr 01, 2009 3:09 pmhey guys i also posted this on my profile and next week i will have more of the story
Daily christan walk!
Once i had felt alone and everything around me scared me. monsters was a story i had thought was funny and Jesus was a name i would never thought about saying or even try taking the time to search what it meant. Until one day....
Here I sit by my mama doing my homework for school. she is smoking something that stinks so bad and makes me cough. When i heard my daddys truck pull up in the drive way it was very loud, which made me jump with fear.I get up on my feet and stand in the kinchen door way from the couch. Daddy comes in druck as can be. i can smell the funny smelling stuff he drinks all the time.
He grabs my mama and pushes her around to the floor. I feel tears come threw my eyes seeing her hurt. i hear my daddy speak to me.
"go to ur room nenah! now!!"
His voice sounds mean, but my feet stay put. Not a move. He comes up to me and grabs my arms as tight i can feel his finger bones on my skinny arm. IT HURTS! My mama screams loudly. He only holds tighter draging me in my room. He puts me in my room and pulls a chair up under the knob I cant get out!
I hear my mama scream more! i hear sounds that i have heard more from the past times daddy had come home like this. SMACK SMACK!! goes a belt or maybe it is a piece of wood like last time.
when more comes my door has been open. I walk out into the kinchen and se my daddy laying on the couch with a bottle in his hands. mama's bed room door is open so i walk in her room and get up on her bed where blood is flowing on the sheets. i kiss her and hug her gentenly.
After giving my mama a hug, I walk out the front door for school. It's a long walk to my school building, but i don't mind the walking. I love being outside. It smells better than inside my house.
When i finally get to school. I see kids on the play ground. I never go play with them cause i am scared they will pump into me and my arm or something would start hurting more than what it is. I don't have many friends, but i do have one friend at school, but he is always sick around winter time so his mama home schools him when it's cold. Then brings him to school during the fall or spring.
when me and danny talks he sometimes mentions a person named Jesus. i always look at hom confused. I thought in my head that Jesus was an unsusal name for someone.
I hear the bell ring now I know I should go to my class room to learn. I love going into a class room .Everyday I see my teacher smiling. I wonder why she is always happy? I wish my mama could be happy like Miss. Mentias. I think she is not happy cause daddy does hurtful things to her and me.
Miss. Mentias is coming around to pick up our homework. I don't have mind. daddy must of picked it up and done away with it. He sometimes takes it outside and burns the paper saying " no girl of mine is gonna be working on papers."
Miss. Mentias stops at my desk.
"Nenah where's your paper sweetie?"
I shyly look down at my desk. "I don't have it Miss. Mentias."
she nods her head "Nenah would you kindly stay for lunch today."
I look up to see her gaze. I shack my head up and down. I can hear other kids giggling. They are laughing at me. i don't see any thing funny so I lay my head down on my desk.
Today class was very instresting. Miss. Mentias believes everyone is creative. She askes us to do a project, and she is giving us two weeks to do it. We have to pick someone we know and write about them and why we picked the. Even though this is interesting I still don't know who i will pick.
Miss. Mentias takes the other kids to lunch and tell me stay here and she will bring my lunch to the room. So here i am know laying my head down waiting for her to come back. I never notice how many books that is in this room. Some look good and funny to read.
I can hear Miss. Mentias walking back to the class room. She enters with two trays of food. She sits the trays down and pulls a seat up to my desk. I don't dare take my eye off her until she is seated.
"Nenah, I just wanted to talk to you ok? sweetie."
I nod my head.
" I was wondering why you haven't been turing in you homework everyday"
I look down at the tray below me, and then back at her.
"sweetie, you know i am here is you need help with anything."
I look away from her, and wisper under my breath.
"you wont understand that i can't"
She looks at me. "Nenah is their something else other than not knowing or wanting to do your work?"
I wisper again. " yes"
"sweetie you can tell me, thats why i am here."
I don't know what i should day or what i should keep to myself. Miss. Mentias looks at me waiting for some kind of an answer.
"I....I'm ..fine......nothing...is wrong... I ..just lost my paper at home...maybe my dad or mom picked up and thought it was trash."
Miss. Mentias looks at me trying to believe what I just said but I can see it in her eyes that she don't believe it one bit.
"Ok, then i will gibe you another paper and you can turn it in friday.
I nod my head and I notice that Miss. Mentias has started to eat over half of her food and i haven't even touched mine.
"aren't you going to eat Nenah?"
"Umm...no i don't feel like eating today."
The rest of the kids started coming in from lunch to get ready to go outside. I stay in my seat watching all them gather around the door with their jackets hanging open. Then Miss.Mentias signs for them to go out. Then she looks at me.
Daily christan walk!
Once i had felt alone and everything around me scared me. monsters was a story i had thought was funny and Jesus was a name i would never thought about saying or even try taking the time to search what it meant. Until one day....
Here I sit by my mama doing my homework for school. she is smoking something that stinks so bad and makes me cough. When i heard my daddys truck pull up in the drive way it was very loud, which made me jump with fear.I get up on my feet and stand in the kinchen door way from the couch. Daddy comes in druck as can be. i can smell the funny smelling stuff he drinks all the time.
He grabs my mama and pushes her around to the floor. I feel tears come threw my eyes seeing her hurt. i hear my daddy speak to me.
"go to ur room nenah! now!!"
His voice sounds mean, but my feet stay put. Not a move. He comes up to me and grabs my arms as tight i can feel his finger bones on my skinny arm. IT HURTS! My mama screams loudly. He only holds tighter draging me in my room. He puts me in my room and pulls a chair up under the knob I cant get out!
I hear my mama scream more! i hear sounds that i have heard more from the past times daddy had come home like this. SMACK SMACK!! goes a belt or maybe it is a piece of wood like last time.
when more comes my door has been open. I walk out into the kinchen and se my daddy laying on the couch with a bottle in his hands. mama's bed room door is open so i walk in her room and get up on her bed where blood is flowing on the sheets. i kiss her and hug her gentenly.
After giving my mama a hug, I walk out the front door for school. It's a long walk to my school building, but i don't mind the walking. I love being outside. It smells better than inside my house.
When i finally get to school. I see kids on the play ground. I never go play with them cause i am scared they will pump into me and my arm or something would start hurting more than what it is. I don't have many friends, but i do have one friend at school, but he is always sick around winter time so his mama home schools him when it's cold. Then brings him to school during the fall or spring.
when me and danny talks he sometimes mentions a person named Jesus. i always look at hom confused. I thought in my head that Jesus was an unsusal name for someone.
I hear the bell ring now I know I should go to my class room to learn. I love going into a class room .Everyday I see my teacher smiling. I wonder why she is always happy? I wish my mama could be happy like Miss. Mentias. I think she is not happy cause daddy does hurtful things to her and me.
Miss. Mentias is coming around to pick up our homework. I don't have mind. daddy must of picked it up and done away with it. He sometimes takes it outside and burns the paper saying " no girl of mine is gonna be working on papers."
Miss. Mentias stops at my desk.
"Nenah where's your paper sweetie?"
I shyly look down at my desk. "I don't have it Miss. Mentias."
she nods her head "Nenah would you kindly stay for lunch today."
I look up to see her gaze. I shack my head up and down. I can hear other kids giggling. They are laughing at me. i don't see any thing funny so I lay my head down on my desk.
Today class was very instresting. Miss. Mentias believes everyone is creative. She askes us to do a project, and she is giving us two weeks to do it. We have to pick someone we know and write about them and why we picked the. Even though this is interesting I still don't know who i will pick.
Miss. Mentias takes the other kids to lunch and tell me stay here and she will bring my lunch to the room. So here i am know laying my head down waiting for her to come back. I never notice how many books that is in this room. Some look good and funny to read.
I can hear Miss. Mentias walking back to the class room. She enters with two trays of food. She sits the trays down and pulls a seat up to my desk. I don't dare take my eye off her until she is seated.
"Nenah, I just wanted to talk to you ok? sweetie."
I nod my head.
" I was wondering why you haven't been turing in you homework everyday"
I look down at the tray below me, and then back at her.
"sweetie, you know i am here is you need help with anything."
I look away from her, and wisper under my breath.
"you wont understand that i can't"
She looks at me. "Nenah is their something else other than not knowing or wanting to do your work?"
I wisper again. " yes"
"sweetie you can tell me, thats why i am here."
I don't know what i should day or what i should keep to myself. Miss. Mentias looks at me waiting for some kind of an answer.
"I....I'm ..fine......nothing...is wrong... I ..just lost my paper at home...maybe my dad or mom picked up and thought it was trash."
Miss. Mentias looks at me trying to believe what I just said but I can see it in her eyes that she don't believe it one bit.
"Ok, then i will gibe you another paper and you can turn it in friday.
I nod my head and I notice that Miss. Mentias has started to eat over half of her food and i haven't even touched mine.
"aren't you going to eat Nenah?"
"Umm...no i don't feel like eating today."
The rest of the kids started coming in from lunch to get ready to go outside. I stay in my seat watching all them gather around the door with their jackets hanging open. Then Miss.Mentias signs for them to go out. Then she looks at me.
