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Posted: Sat Feb 07, 2009 11:16 amIs God Awsome or what ? or is He just Awsome ?
Needless to say, the past two days had been a heavy duty soul searching time for me, and out of habit of practicing the 10th step of AA which suggests , "continued to take peronal inventory ...." so out comes the sketch pad , and ..... Absolutely nothing !! blank ! OK , check AA Hotline phone for msges. (potential newbies to work on) .. Nothing Ok, call Gary (spons) too late at night ! Ok , back to OASIS ... write new post @ real soltns - introduce urself - too late 4 me now , go to sleep .... toss & turn .... morning , prayer/meditation , gallon of coffee , OASIS , stp 13 (make a list) - "got that allready" Ok, 14 ("Go back and read what you've written so far since CCCC") - HUH ??? - OKkaaaaY , step 12 ... (Hey, dont tell this to anybody ok?) another COOLy " Now that you got what you came here for, you wanna leave !" !!!! LIGHT BULB !!!!
Rewind ...9.5 years ago - 6 months sober -- Sponsor: " Now that you got what you came here for , you wanna keep it for yourself ". Me : " well umm ,yeah, you know, umm, " (make sure you scratch your head first vahn !!) .... 6:00 AM -next morning, RING RING , Hello ? Gary : "This guy 's gettin outa prison today, his name's Jim , I'm 2 b z 2 pick him up , you go , CLICK "
Now, who.... !?! , 10:00 AM, " Hey, my name's vahn , Gary's b z I'm ur ride , !! TO -A- MEETING !!! ... "But I dont need a mtg." " I dont care, I DO ! and that's where I'm goin, you dont like it , you WALK !"
On the way down (2 hr. ride) , this guy is on full-throttle -denial right !
O kaay ! Give him the 9th degree & no holds barred ! (I"ll show you) .
So 2 days later , he dissapears from the face of the earth , and me and Gary r at the spitting contests playing ping-pong , you, no you ! OK silent treatment save "which mtg u goin to , I'll go to the other one"
FFWD, 2.5 yrs later , AA Convention - 800 registered so far- Fri. nite mystery speaker, also passing out anniversary medallions - "cant miss this one !"
Fri. morn. 6:00 AM Ring-Ring " Hey vahn, this guy's coming to pick you up @ 8 be ready, CLICK!" , "Now who....?"
8:00 AM , Ding-Dong , " Hey I'm Jim, Gary's b z , I'm ur ride , to the CONVENTION ! ... Oh , he also asked me to remind u to bring a suit !! "
" Wha... Who ..." " If I have to tie you down I will"
10:00 PM Gary's handing me my 3 yr. medallion, I'm handing Jim his 2, Jim's handing Dave his 1st, and Dave's handing the newest his Big Book (AA Textbook) .
Now, what does all this have to do with anything ? Is it self glorification ? Is it for me to get a atta boy, or brownie points ? well you may think so , but I dont .
It was that one sentence that I got to by following one suggestion, to go back one day and to read it once more , "Now that you got what you came here for ...... well ... give it one more day, Its the only one you got " did I by any chance mention ONE ?!?!
The age of miracles are still with us . Is God Awsome or what ? or is He just Awsome !
Needless to say, the past two days had been a heavy duty soul searching time for me, and out of habit of practicing the 10th step of AA which suggests , "continued to take peronal inventory ...." so out comes the sketch pad , and ..... Absolutely nothing !! blank ! OK , check AA Hotline phone for msges. (potential newbies to work on) .. Nothing Ok, call Gary (spons) too late at night ! Ok , back to OASIS ... write new post @ real soltns - introduce urself - too late 4 me now , go to sleep .... toss & turn .... morning , prayer/meditation , gallon of coffee , OASIS , stp 13 (make a list) - "got that allready" Ok, 14 ("Go back and read what you've written so far since CCCC") - HUH ??? - OKkaaaaY , step 12 ... (Hey, dont tell this to anybody ok?) another COOLy " Now that you got what you came here for, you wanna leave !" !!!! LIGHT BULB !!!!
Rewind ...9.5 years ago - 6 months sober -- Sponsor: " Now that you got what you came here for , you wanna keep it for yourself ". Me : " well umm ,yeah, you know, umm, " (make sure you scratch your head first vahn !!) .... 6:00 AM -next morning, RING RING , Hello ? Gary : "This guy 's gettin outa prison today, his name's Jim , I'm 2 b z 2 pick him up , you go , CLICK "
Now, who.... !?! , 10:00 AM, " Hey, my name's vahn , Gary's b z I'm ur ride , !! TO -A- MEETING !!! ... "But I dont need a mtg." " I dont care, I DO ! and that's where I'm goin, you dont like it , you WALK !"
On the way down (2 hr. ride) , this guy is on full-throttle -denial right !
O kaay ! Give him the 9th degree & no holds barred ! (I"ll show you) .
So 2 days later , he dissapears from the face of the earth , and me and Gary r at the spitting contests playing ping-pong , you, no you ! OK silent treatment save "which mtg u goin to , I'll go to the other one"
FFWD, 2.5 yrs later , AA Convention - 800 registered so far- Fri. nite mystery speaker, also passing out anniversary medallions - "cant miss this one !"
Fri. morn. 6:00 AM Ring-Ring " Hey vahn, this guy's coming to pick you up @ 8 be ready, CLICK!" , "Now who....?"
8:00 AM , Ding-Dong , " Hey I'm Jim, Gary's b z , I'm ur ride , to the CONVENTION ! ... Oh , he also asked me to remind u to bring a suit !! "
" Wha... Who ..." " If I have to tie you down I will"
10:00 PM Gary's handing me my 3 yr. medallion, I'm handing Jim his 2, Jim's handing Dave his 1st, and Dave's handing the newest his Big Book (AA Textbook) .
Now, what does all this have to do with anything ? Is it self glorification ? Is it for me to get a atta boy, or brownie points ? well you may think so , but I dont .
It was that one sentence that I got to by following one suggestion, to go back one day and to read it once more , "Now that you got what you came here for ...... well ... give it one more day, Its the only one you got " did I by any chance mention ONE ?!?!
The age of miracles are still with us . Is God Awsome or what ? or is He just Awsome !
great one.