His calling...my journey to walk worthy

[mlg]

Got a little rest amongst some very strange dreams...but one that I remember most vividly went something like this...I was with a group of people on some kind of vacation...and when we get there I find we are going to take a cruise...and so I check into my hotel and go out to meet the boat but when I step out the door there's the ocean between me and where I'm suppose to go to meet the ship...so I realize I'm going to have to swim to meet the boat...but I become afraid that it may be too far for me to swim and I might get tired and not be able to reach the platform to get to the ship and I might drown...so I start looking around and find another place where it has these step like things you can walk down only getting so far in the water each time...and finally I get to one and I just sit down on it going no further with water all around me...and I never reached the ship...I woke up.

Makes no sense to me...but was just weird.

[xxJILLxx]

Hello mlg,

Makes perfect sense to me sis. You see the ship is a symbol of the church and the water around it is a symbol of the Holy Spirit. You feel you cant reach the church. That maybe u are unable to do it on your own means as in swimming, when u swim u are doing it on your own physical strength. You are looking to Him and find a way to get there but not on your strength which shows that you realise He is in control. And you made your way to the first step... resting in Him. Now let Him lead u the rest of the way and He will continue to show u the way back to your joy, which is serving Him and His people.

Now go take a dip and wait and see what the Lord will have u do to get that joy back. The steps will appear right before your eyes and soon u will be walking on water again instead of in it!

Love u much sis
God bless
xoxoox
♥Jill

[mlg]

Today has been an interesting day...I'm not sure if it's because I got a bit of rest last night...or because I'm looking for signs from God...but today I was a tad anxious about something that has been going on in my life...and I expressed a small comment or two about the situation to my precious daughter...and her Faith in God shined forth and she said to me...mom don't worry God will take care of this...the peace I gained from that one statement out of my child's mouth...has really helped soothe some of my worries...then as I sit here thinking of what she said earlier...I can't help but think that my weakness brought forth her faith...was it God showing me how strong He is in her life?...or was it God saying look your child's faith is stronger in me than your own at this time...but whatever it was it reminded me of His control and brought a bit more peace to my heart.

Jill your shared thoughts on my dream...well I never have had the gift to interpret dreams...but it totally made me see a lot....I think maybe God gave me that dream...to show me what I couldn't hear...you know I've been waiting expectantly for God to move...when in reality I think it's me that needs to move...as God is showing me the direction but I have to take the steps. Someone told me yesterday it is a choice...and one we all must choose...which of course I know all this in my mind...but it's that getting it from your mind to your heart path that sometimes gets a little crooked along the way and you have to be reminded of things by others who aren't sitting in the situation and can see it more clearly than you can.

There's a guy at my church that says we should look through the situation and not at it....but with so much that's been thrown my direction lately...I couldn't help but start to notice some of the situations...which reminded me of all the situations...which brought me to looking at everything instead of continuing to look through it.

I'm still not up and running yet...but at least I'm beginning to SEE a bit better...still got a long way to go....still don't feel like doing much for anyone else but that might be because I still need more rest and time with God...not really sure.

Thank you to everyone who has showed me love and support and encouragement and most of all prayers over the past few days...see I'm a bit hard headed at times....and sometimes I gotta hear something several times before I finally begin to accept the fact that I just might need some rest....or that God is here with me...I'm just too focused on my issues instead of seeing His presence.

Still trying...

[mlg]

A soul cries in the night
Let me out and let me free
Behind the wall shines the light
But first the soul must choose to be.

At first it feels all snug
Yet then it begins to suffocate
Then one feels His warm, soft tug
And wonders if they've waited til it's too late

But along comes one
Who hears the souls cries
And reminds them of the truth of a bond
That will bring peace and healing instead of sighs

Some people settle in life
And Some settle for nothing less
Than Butterfly wings....

I choose the wings

[mlg]

Things are a bit better so far this week. Still tired...so I continue to rest in my Jesus...need the refreshment....now of course God won't let me sit idle...and He urges me here and there to reach for someone...but it's only when I feel that desperate push from Him that I respond...as I know I need to sit at His feet as much as possible to replinish the virtue I've lost over this path month or so.

Been having some issues with my daughter this week...had a long discussion with her last night...and have prayed for her...and today she's been much better....hopefully we are on the upside.

I see God's blessings flowing...He's got a plan for everything...it's just up to me to be patient...and to not let the trials in my life drag me back into the pit.

[mlg]

Kind of a bit upset today...I got to work and my frog had got out...this is my younger frog...his name was Sid...anyway they found him all the way down the hall in the proshop...he had gone through a lot to get there...but what is worse, the employee who found him put him in my secretary's drawer and didn't tell anyone he was there....this frog is a water frog and has to be in water at all times...when we finally found out where he was...he was shriveled almost into nothing and covered in dust and stuff...he was still alive so we washed him off and put him in water to try and rehydrate him...but sadly he didn't make it. He was a year old almost...I got him last october...oh well I still have my big frog and she is happy and playing today...gonna miss ol' sid though.

[Dora]

That's sad! Poor sid.

To bad the misunderstanding caused the little fella his life. Sorta makes you wish you could just rewind time and change things so it doesn't happen again.

We had frogs like that once and they got out of the tank when about a year old. The first time we found one that got out but after that we didn't notice until to late. They get really big! I remember the struggle you went through trying to get these two to get along. Getting another one is probably just out of the picture.

[Tam]

Mlg I am so sorry for your lost. It is just as hard to lose pets as it is love ones. I will keep you in my prayers
Love ya sis!

[mlg]

Spiritually and emotionally I am feeling so much better...but physically still very tired and don't feel well. I haven't really even felt like eating today...guess it's cuz I just don't feel good.

I made the bulletins for church tomorrow and printed them and they are ready to go...I'm still working for the Lord...just not as hard right now as I am still refreshing in His love...a much needed rest...

I am only working 3 days this week and then I'm off for 2 days...football season starts this week...will be good to just go have some fun watching nene cheer on the team She starts school on Monday...my prayers are with her that she hang on tight to Jesus in the upcoming year...and allow Him to be her strength and her guide always.

Looking forward to church tomorrow....just love to have time with Him in worship and praise and fill my cup with His refreshing taste!

[mlg]

Church today was awesome...I just love teaching the kids...always makes me smile...

Well, the heat is killing me...can't even walk outside without sweating...not even for 3 minutes....we need some rain too...I'm not usually one to complain about the heat...but I think it's the humidity more than the heat that's getting to me the most...taking a bit of a toll on me for sure.

I'm thinking a nap is looking good...might take me one this afternoon..

[mlg]

I was thinking this morning...a couple of months ago...we had revival at my church...and during this time myself and one other sister did most of the cleanup after each meal...staying late...and making sure the fellowship hall was cleaned and all the dishes washed and put away. Both of us are working mom's...me a single mom and she a mom who's husband is on the road a lot as he is a truck driver. During this time we didn't mind doing the cleaning...but I noticed how the other ladies in the church did not offer to help...and all just went home after services were over while me and this sister stayed to do the cleanup.

Then about a month later we had a dinner at the church again...this time the sister and I didn't stay to help clean as we usually do...as we had other things we had to do that day...but amazingly when we came back the next week...the fellowship hall was clean and everything put away...the ones who chose not to help us during the times they watched us work so hard...must have decided they best do something lest the church family come back to moldy dishes and rank smells.

I often wonder though why people sit back and watch others work so hard, until those working so hard are burned out and worn to a frazzle...and physically exhausted...and can't continue to work anymore....and then and only then will they decide to pitch in and help just a little bit...but makes me wonder if those hard workers come back and help...would the other less caring workers stay to help them...or would they go back to their lazy ways and choose to watch the hard workers once again?

[grace2010]

Mlg,

I am praying for you. May God continue to strengthen you in His love. You are so important to this ministry and in His service. God bless you!!!!

In His love...